When I miss you :)

Hello! :)

The lounge was dormant. And now I see loads of activity. Admins ki dhamkio ka kamaal hai sub. :P

So I return, I don't know if I return or its just a guest appearance, but I know I'll have to be regular else FL will kill me. No escape now, as Delhi will be seeing him soon. So I accepted his challenge, no copy paste from my blog, exclusively for TWL, I write.

This post is dedicated to a person, who has been an integral part of my life. We have grown up together. 8 yrs on and the bond is getting stronger with each passing day. Though I'm almost always clueless about his existence and whereabouts most of the time, but then again, I have my reasons to miss him. No matter how much he drives me insane, but he's the one who keeps me sane, rooted. I'm so glad to have you there. :D

I'm lost without you baby

My heart wants to be with you forever

In my mind, its your picture that I flaunt

So close, yet to far

Seeing you beside me is all that I want

You are the only one for me

Over miles we ain't together

Undying, unconditional love that keeps us certain yet free.

My stupid attempt at writing an acrostic poem. I hope I didn't fail that bad. And no, we are not a couple, just in case. :P

Till the next time,

Rose

Rose of suicide

Rose of suicide

I sang all night, the night I cried,

I cried whole night, the night I died.

As I woke up, I could see my own body,

It felt little giddy, it felt real shoddy.

I went up and down, I went here and there,

I found myself hanging, in the soaking thin air.

I saw no long tunnel, I saw no bright light,

I ventured in the air like the freshly cut kite.

Then I saw a lake, a green fake lake,

Was it real lake or a cake angels bake?

I saw little angel, like a soft puppy,

Her eyes were slim, her lips were sloppy

Her wings where white, here eyes were green,

She was the cute fairy of my quintessential dream.

We saw the pink sun, we saw the grey showers,

On the bank of the lake we talked for hours.

“You hear the bells toll, you hear the black crow,

It’s been a long time, you must now go.”

“Take this red rose”, her sweet words said,

“Smell, this and I’ll come to you, if you feel sad”

She took me to a cliff, and shoved me down,

I crashed on my head, but I woke up in my bed.

No it wasn’t me, I wasn’t any dead.

It was my cute and lovely dream, which died instead.

I felt so lonely, so teary so low,

And so as I felt that, I had never felt so.

I took a decision, I picked the sharp knife,

To meet her again, I ended my life.

And then I started singing, I hummed all night,

The night I cried, was the night I died.

Everlasting LOVE

A melody,

A love song

You full my life with all

Utopian world of mine, has only you and me

Sharing each moment with love and compassion

Honey, keep loving me forever and ever.

Giving my life a meaning,

Understanding my pains as yours...

Parting for sometime may be difficult, but

Thank you for being there for me..

Always, you can count on me..

I love you and you love me.............

P.S| dedicated to the love of Rose's life by her

(posted on behalf of Rose)

to Rose

Rosy pic,

Oh so nice

Sweet is you

Ever so bright !!

Heyya dear one.. Happy b'day :)
and happiness forever !!

God bless ya tonnes !

Mwaaah !!
*Hugz*

The Perfect You...

Overcome a fear
Laugh out loud
Break the silence
Speak to the crowd

Feel the joy
Taste the wind
Breathe the stars
Imagine...

Know her sadness
Heal his pain
Listen closely
Receive the same

Model kindness
Wear peace
Show mercy
Act the least

Make a promise
Give from the heart
Take and return
End and restart

Rise from the bottom
Soar from the deep
Smile and rest
Desire and seek

Learn from the secrets
Read between the lines
Feel the thirst for truth
Look for the sighs

Sing and dance
Love and live
And remember you get
Whatever you give


I'm getting back to my motivational writings :D
I hope this was good, though I know the lines hardly make some sense, but it deep :P


Till the next time,

What next...IV

Continued from Roshwrite's Post

"No...but this can't be happening. He doesnt seem like that kind of a guy, He's my best friend, he wont do anything like that...may be she's just jealous of us, and making all this,or may be she's right...I need to talk to him. "
The girl picks up the phone, he is on his speed dial...bell goes..
"Hi" his regular chirpy voice.
"Pranjal, we need to talk"
"Ya, go ahead, what's it?"
"Not like this, can you come to the club, right now?"
"Ummm...at this hour...alright..B--"
She disconnected the phone.

Till the next time,
Rose

What next..??

"After a few months of courtship with the guy I'm dating, I wasn't feeling much, if any, emotional attachment to him.
Today I decided to break up with him, but I want to do it in person because otherwise I'm just being a lousy coward.
Well, he got online saying he couldn't sleep, right after I finished rehearsing what I was going to say when I broke up with him.
After some small talk, he admitted he has started to fall in love with me..."

What shall she do now?


Till the next time,
Rose

P.S. The lounge has been quiet so thought of this chain post. Though I know I may not get response to this, but I guess Roshwrites will contnue this, have been following her beautiful way of writing.

I don't know what should be blamed for this dormancy of the lounge...ummm...may be the weather:P
Looking forward for certain activities in here.

I'm Back :D

Hello Lounge!
Finally I write after a huge break...exams and almost every single thing in life kept me from writing:D
I haven't got any clue about what to write, so writing this random thing:D
100 truths :D

1. Last beverage→ water
2. Last phone call→ my Nani
3. Last text message→ Lagan
4. Last song you listened to→Guzarish from Ghajini
5. Last time you cried→ yesterday

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. Dated someone twice → No
7. Been cheated on?→ No
8. Kissed someone & regretted it? →No
9. Lost someone special?→ Yes
10. Been depressed?→ Yes
11. Been drunk? →Yes
LIST FIVE FAVORITE COLORS
12. Red
13. Blue
14. Black
15. ___
16. ___(Lol! Shopping for me is very easy...these are the only colours I like :D)

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: 2009
17. Made new friends → Yes
18. Fallen out of love → yes..no...maybe..i donnow...aahhhhh
19. Laughed until you cried → Yes
20. Met someone who changed you→ Yes
21. Found out who your true friends were→ I found out who weren't ;)
22. Found out someone was talking about you→ yes
23. Kissed anyone on your friend's list→ no
24. When do you want to get married?→ Lol! When I get a well settled guy :D
25. How many kids do you want to have→ 3
26. Do you have any pets → I had my spider, Spikey, who died recently :(
I sort of have a dog, I call him Jumpy...and every year I get a kitty and her brood during the breeding season, they just love our lawns :D
27. Do you want to change your name→ Not exactly! Changed it to Rose, here in blogosphere :D
28. What did you do for your last birthday→ Lol..went for a movie, follwed by an exotic lunch:D
29. What time did you wake up today → 10:00 am..the usual
30. What were you doing at midnight last night→ Reading Twilight :D
31. Name something you CANNOT wait for →My college to start!
32. Last time you saw your Mother→Just now
33. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life →hmm..many things....
34. What are you listening to right now → Random songs by Westlife
35. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom → No
36. What's getting on your nerves right now? →I'm getting bored like hell!
37. Whats your real name → Sushmita Malakar
38. Relationship Status→Hmmm...
39. Zodiac sign: Gemini
40. Male or female→ Girl :D
41. Elementary→ Darbari Lal DAV Model School, Shalimar Bagh.
Middle School - Darbari Lal DAV Model School, Shalimar Bagh.
Hair color → Black
44. Long or short → Long...very long :P
Height → 5Ft 4"
46. Do you have a crush on someone? →Lol...loads!
47. What do you like about yourself?→No matter whatever I do, with how much perfection I do it, I still end up in a mess...:D
48. Piercings →Ears :P
49. Tattoos → no
50. Righty or lefty → Righty

FIRSTS :
51. First surgery→ Never had any!
52. First piercing → ears
53. First tattoo- none
54. First best friend →me...lol... love talking to myslf :P
55. First sport you joined → Volley Ball.
56.First vacation→Nainital when I was 4 months old :D
57. First concert → None:(
58. First crush→Tobey Maguire, when I saw Spider man :D
60. First alcohol drink→Breezer...It was tropical orange I guess
RIGHT NOW:
61. Eating → Lays...classic salted, my favourite :D
62. Drinking → Nothing
63. I'm about to→Format my PC, hit the gym, then go for a walk, and then watch the curiouscase of benjamin button!
64. Listening to → Westlife
65. Waiting for → Mom and Dad to wake up from their nap so that I can have someone to chat :D
YOUR FUTURE :
66. Want kids?→ Yes
67. Want to get married? →Obviously!
69. First thing you notice →Eyes, and then shoes!
70. Hugs or kisses → hugs:)
71. Shorter or taller→Taller...I would never want a guy shorter than my 5ft 4"..lol!
72. Older or Younger → Doestn Matter!
73. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantic and spontaneous
74. Nice smile or nice eyes → Eyes:D
75. Tattoos or piercings→His body, do whatever he feels like, as if I care!
76. Sensitive or loud- ...
77. Hook-up or relationship →Relationship obviously

HAVE YOU EVER :
79. Kissed a stranger →No
80. Drank hard liquor → Yes
81. Lost glasses/contacts → No
82. Sex on first date → No
83. Broken someone's heart → May be..
84. Had your own heart broken →Sort of
85. Been arrested?→Not at all
86. Turned someone down → Yes
87. Cried when someone died→ Yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
89. Yourself → YES
90. Miracles → YES
91. Love at first sight → May be
92. Heaven →No
93. Santa Claus → No
94. Kissing on the first date? → Depends

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
96. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → Yes...I miss my best friend a lot:(
97. Ever dated two people at once?→No
98. Do you believe its possible to remain faithful forever? →Yes.
99. What's the one thing you cannot live without?→ Practically, the thing is oxygen, but for my survival love is important...my mom, dad, sis and friends, their love :D
100. Posting this as 100 Truths? →Nice way to kill the time, and driving the loungers mad :P

Till the next time,

Rose

Dramatic Verse!

One day in Prats' poetry class...

Prats :...So now you know the basic of rhyming. I want all of you to write four lines in verse form and bring it to our next class.

The next poetry class...

Prats : Ste, read out loudly what you have written.

Ste : Yes, Ma'am!

A boy was walking down the track,
The train was coming fast.
The boy stepped off the rail road track,
To let the train go past.

Prats : Not bad, Ste but you could have made it more dramatic. Sandeep, you try.

Sandeep : More dramatic...er...ummm...

A boy was walking down the track,
The train was coming fast
er...
The train jumped off the rail road track,
To let the boy go past.


Till the next time,
Rose

P.S. Sorry Prat Di, Ste and Sandeep "Dude"...couldnt help myself :P

The loving you..

Seven Seas,
Million Miles,
Thousand unkept promises.
Hundreds of my unspoken words,
But if I could do it over, ever..
I will trade, give away
Anything to see,
the loving
YOU...
Till the next time,
Rose

The Rose:)

Hmmm..alright!
Had an exam in the morning..came back home, checked WL and got to know about this intro thing!
The founders and the admins, thanks a lot for this special section, though I'm completely clueless about what to write, this is the worst task(as for me), to write about myself!
So let's see...I'm known as Rose here and everywhere, and love that.
18- something, I'm to the core Delhite. The best part about being Me is that I'm a Bong, born in Delhi, to the most beautiful parents, thanks mom and dad.
I'm a wanderer, looking for answers, just too confused about my self!
I love writing, so its the one thing that brings me here :D
I love reading a lot, no particular choices in my reads as I enjoy reading anythin' from fictions to biographies. And as for authors, no favourites as I feel every writer writes to its best, I'm no one to judge, even as personal favourites.
The next thing that I love is music, trained in hindustani classical music, I love singing and my guitar :D Though I cant sing now, my throat and the tonsils..god they are painful..:(
There's nothing much I want from my life, just a recognition in the field I would be working, decent money, and a happy mom and dad, that's about it I guess. I dont know myself so well...

I blog at
1) My World
2)Scribblings with Freelancer.
Hmmm..I have been blogging since the past one month or so, and I love it when I'm here at the lounge, its a constant learning process to be here, thanks to everyone here...reading my writes, suggesting betterments, and discussion various styles of writings:)
Thanks again to all...Freelancer, who introduced me to WL, Kajal, who invited me here, Prats, Tan, Leo, Rashi, Aarthi,Nuchu , Arun,Sonshu(my li'l lady) and all to help this budding writer grow! Love you all:)

Till the next time,
Rose

The Red Sandals!

I tried to write according to the theme...:)

Coversation between two 6-yrs old.

"Look I got new pair of sandal"
"Eeep..red??I hate it..I love blue."
The girl ran to her home and returns with a blue paint bottle and brush. She paints one sandla blue and gives it to the other girl.
"What?Why? Now none of us can wear it! Its useless."
"No problems!You keep it safe with you. Just to remind you that we are useless without each other"





Till the next time,
Rose

P.S. I bought new pair of red sandals for me and my best friend last week, for she painted her new red sandals blue once, only beacuse I hated them!
This happened years ago, but it brings a smile on my face whenever I see a li'l red sandal with few blue brush strokes on it:)

Now its her turn..II

Contihued from Kajal's post

"How much I wished to tell you what I felt, but your brotherly love stopped me.I might have been wrong, but never saw anything coming from your side.."
"But Kajal, just a li'l hint..."
"I did try, but then it would have scarred the beautiful relationship named-brother-sister.."
"I...aahh.."
The only sound that came from Kajal's side--*sob*

After the call

Reply to Kajal's post

Why did I call him?
I could have lived with the cherished fact that he loved me the way I did, without letting him know that!
May be I have ruined whatever relation we had..may be I just hurt myself..may be I just hurt a loving heart..??

Love and Death...

I watch her walk,
I watch her run.
I watch her laugh,
I watch her cry.

I'm not a stalker,
Yet I'm stalking her.
She was supposed to be in my world,
long ago, But I cant take her.

I do love her,
I know she cant be mine,
neither in her world nor in mine,
So, why not let her live,in her world

She can love here,
blossom here.
For me, I'll stalk her
watch her...

I'm death,
the evil you fear,
the last enemy you should fight,
But I lost--lost to LOVE!

Till the next time,
Rose

P.S. I was trying to be with the flavour of the lounge today, but failed. ended up with mush!!
Another lame attempt! Sorry guys:(
Thanks Rashi for previewing it and making the required changes:)
Thanks Arun, for bearing with me, sorry if it hurt you--personifying death as a male:P

Hopeless...

I'm all alone in a room that is dark,
Fighting the urge to add another mark.
My tears are flowing, my thoughts collide,
And the end result I'll have to hide.

I'm battered, bruised and all alone,
Unable to fight this on my own.
Friends used to help me through the day,
But they saw my pain and ran away.

I'm growing weaker as the days pass,
Afraid today might be my last.
I know the next move is upto me,
Asking for help is the only key.

Till the next time,
Rose

P.S. Dedicated to my friend, who hated the world for it was responsible for what she was going through. I salute her spirit for fighting back...loads of love:)
And yes, Rashi and Leo, thanks for previewing it :)

The feeling of being in love...

Love is so powerful because being loved causes one to love oneself.
Nothing contributes to the self-image more than being loved by another.
When the words, “I love you” are expressed to you for the first time,
your world blossoms, your heart glows with inspiration,
confidence and thoughts of the mountains you can move.
It’s more than an emotional kick;
suddenly you like yourself more than you ever have before.


Till the next time,
Rose


P.S. this is something straight from the heart...:)
Thanks Princess Nuchu and Freelancer for previewing it :)

Together Forever...

So my first tryst with the mush. I wrote it few months back, dont know if it is worth reading.

Together Forever… Walking together.
Loving each other so effortlessly.
Sharing and Caring, we’re closest of friends.
Always together - Our love never ends.

Together, Forever - Our hearts are so true.
Together, Forever - Just me and you.
Together, Forever - Let love have its way.
Together, Forever - We’re happy each day!


Till the next time,
Rose

P.S I cross posted it from my site other than blogger. I know I cant write about this one feeling, very bad at it, sorry if it was bad :D

Winning herself back..

She stood crying in front of the mirror. Her mascara had lon since smeared all over her pale cheek and the mirror seemed to cruely reflect each smudge. The dress she was wearing was a li'l too small, its colour a li'l too faded, and the mirror found delight in throwing these details in her melancholy face. The longer she looked, the more details the mirror pointed out. Sadly, she stared at the mirror's reflection, and it made her tears flow in currents, washing away the last of her blck eye make-up as well as the last of her self respect.

Then, something unusual happened, something she couldn't explain.
She stopped crying. Turning away from the wretched silver surface that had ruled her life for so long, she ooked inward instead. It wasn't easy. On her way to her real self, she came across many obstacles, like her weight or her clothes or even her toothy smile; these things had been so important before, but now she realized they simply stood in her way. So she dug deeper, into the part of her that had been invisible for all these years--because she has chosen not to look at it. Under many "problems" that her mirror caused her to obsess over, there was an intelligent girl with a friendly attitude and a positive outlook. Before she could guess, her tears had cleansed her face and her mind had cleansed her soul.

She turned back to the mirror, but this time it threw nothing at her face. She had nothing to hide and nothing for the pretty mirror to laugh at. She walked towards the mirror and did something she had sone plenty of times before...she smiled and thus won herself back!

Till the next time,
Rose


P.S. This come from the diary of a girl who was once in search of herself, and later rose as a winner, winnig herself back:)

Celebrating freedom...

I was put in a cage by my parents,
But now they have opened the door.
I know my whole life is out there,
I'm not a kid anymore.

They tell me how they had felt,
The day that they were let free.
They say it was oh-so exciting,
But their words aint enough for me.

And now that the day is finally here,
The world is mine to explore.
I know that when I step out there,
I cannot turn back anymore.

My first step will be purely courage,
My second will be disbelief,
My third one will be great pride,
My fourth one will be up to me....


Till the next time,





P.S.I'm quiet nervous as this is one first post here, knowing that so many people out here will be reading it. Hope you guys like this little effort...:)