What do you do when someone breaks your heart

"So what do you do when some one breaks your heart?"
"what can I do, just that everytime this happens i feel real low, i stay down for a few days, i dont eat, i only drink. i listen to sad songs, i watch romantic comedies and become teary all the time"
"what a loser?"
"no I am not I am sad is that becoming a loser?"
"if a person breaks your heart they dont deserve your tears"
"Those are not true in real life buddy, when a person breaks your heart they get a saddist pleasure out of it, take my word. maybe i'll get one too if i break someone's heart.but shit happens what can you do?"
"stand up and fight"
"fight for what? fight for love and acceptance?"
"ya well i am sorry to hear this "
"i am too, i have seen if you love a person too much you get sick. like if you take a drink too much you puke. its the same way"
"ya shit happens but the thing is not to ever stop loving."
"so you mean i shouldnt stop loving her?"
"she has the right to not love you but she does not have the right to stop you from loving her"
"if i was in a good mood i would laugh at you, that sounds so funny"
"if you love her truly you should do so unconditionally. without expectations"
"ya right from a fairy tale"
"ya i was just kidding get a new babe"
"i will but not today, it will take some time to gather my stuff again"

Death By Love ....

The world around me is so cruel

Its just a reflection of hell

Love buried in the grave

Poor heart, only love it craves

Darkness surrounding my happiness

Now i am used to the bitterness

Acids of love burning me all over

Turning my love into hatred forever

Beauty spilling outside the face

Filthy inside, with no grace

Slowly taught me to love

Blindfolded me to deceive

Act of winning heart, with charm

Felt false warmth, in his arm

His lies echo in my ear like a thunder

How did i lose my mind, I still Wonder

First love, First kiss i tasted

I might lose it, I feared

One in a million, i thought i was blessed

I never had it, I then realised

I lost it, before i could have it

Cursed is my life, i accept it

My soul no longer hungry for mortality

I only belong there in eternity

Love, the beauty and the beast, never pleased me

So i sip the poison of love, do not cry for me

Pain leaving my body, is a relieve

Oh ! How amazing is Death By Love !

I Miss You ..

Life would have been different

If we were Together

I would have been livin my life

But You left me, and i forgot to breathe

Looking back all i get is a tear

Wish you were here very near

groaning at the wickedness of my fate

I realise Now its too late

waking up with wet eyes i miss you !

Wish i never would have met you

Deep scar in my heart is not healed

The evil side of you is revealed

I hate you, as much as i love you

I cry at night thinking of you

Losing you was part of the game

For you played it so lame

My love for you is pure, i cry no more

For you will stay in my heart forever

As the Star fall down, i wish for you

My heart silently whispers *I MISS YOU*

If Only ...

I saw his shadow in my dream. I tried to catch him up. I wanted to hug him. I wanted to touch his lips with mine !!

His mesmerising smile melts my heart ! This isn't the first time i tried catching him in my wildest dreams. He is in my dreams almost every time i fall asleep.
I wonder is this really love?? Or just my desire to hold him. Or is this lust?? Is it turning into longing ??

He haunt my memories. I get angry. He doesn't give a damn. He doesn't even care for my existence. A virgin me, A fucker you. I hate you more than any one !!
I know he never even said hello from his heart. I want to delete him from my memories. But the more i try, bloody the more he haunts .

Is dream a fool's paradise??Is dream a fiction?? It might be, for its the only way to see him. I'm tryin to walk away and laugh it off . Nothing feels good now. He never said he loves me. But i assumed he liked me. I gaze at his pic for hours.why don't you take off that pic of yours you bugger !

I hate to sit alone in the dark. I wonder why my eyes are wet. I never wanted to end up writing about him in this way. I always wanted to see him in my dreams..

I never wanted to give it a chance to forget him, no matter if nothin feels good ..

If only, he loved me back, as madly as i did .
If only, he knew how much i love him..

I don't want to sleep at the ugly nights any more. The full moon is now just a rock of nothingness..The stars look surreal. I like the dim lights. I don't want to burst in anger.. I liked it more when u used to buzz me to chat. It all seems to be a bubble of dream.. I shoot the bubble..

Is this my sincere confession?? Or is this my anger burning.. I might bruise you if i meet you...Go away my dear ! I don't want you to see me collapse..

You were the friend who turned into my beloved and turned into jilt ! I surrender here with silence. This silence will follow me forever. I'm blind to love ,I'm deaf to music, for my fate i know is wicked ! I crush my feelings deliberately , softly ..

escapism

There is this feeling

for a really long time

can't shake it off

or stop thinking about.

Wondering what is happening

why is Life so demanding

or do we make it so

Shuddering at the very thought

facing the dilemma of what is ought.

Like a mad man down the road

running helter skelter

are our wrecked thoughts

good or bad, laziness creeps.

Inept are we

in our action and words,

always on the verge of lies

shillyshallying obligations

unto us and others

making mockery of all

the inclination to escape

present realities

into our own world 

of imaginations and fantasies

to assuage our thoughts

is everpresent as ever

Is the notion due

to pure haziness

on our part.

Is shying away

from responsibilities 

show the right

sensibilities

es·cap·ism 

n.

The tendency to escape from daily reality or routine by indulging in daydreaming, fantasy, or entertainment.

A bug – a guru.

Here I sit, in this stranded cave
Having lost all –
My family, love, kingdom and people.
I have nowhere to go,
I await no one’s call –
In that bloody battlefield, I lost them all!

The battle so filthy,
It ruined me to dust –
My people betrayed, whom I trust
Still. Maybe it’s time
For me to bid goodbye –
After all that happened, I wonder why!

Where are you?
My loveliest –
The one to whom I sworn.
Traitor, yet my friend
Where have you gone?
Deceiving the land, where you were born!

Sitting here tonight,
I feel so low,
For, apart from the heavens, I’ve nowhere to go,
I flew from the arena
My people know
This shameful face of mine, I cannot show.

My sword, my friend
I plea to thee –
Cut off my head and set me free,
For, I have no choice
But to flee –
Tomorrow’s sunrise, I want not to see.

But stop. What is that bug on the wall?
Striving to climb up, yet so small,
Hurling a web and trying to mount
But each time it would surely fall.

No, wait! It is climbing now
Showing me the way exactly how
What a thought, that has crept in my mind!
“O Spider, my teacher, let me take a bow.”

Now I know! No need to fake it.
The world to you is the way you take it.
One thing that I have learnt for my life –
If you try, you will surely make it.

(250 Words)

Lost . . . .

Hello there, guys!!
A small note bfore continuing. . . .

As many of you very well know, I have been experimenting quite a lot now in these hols with PhotoShop. Fiddling, I like to call it.

Well, now I have gone on and decided to do something of it. Make it a little bit more productive. I have started a blog for my little amateur artworks, and this blog is now ready to go public.

The blog is called iMaze…....

I request you guys give it a shot and do comment
:)

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It has been a while since I ever posted a poem online, so here’s one.

It’s been a while since I saw her smile,

And dance in harmony,

I’ve seen her cry her pretty eyes out

One time too many

Her Love she lost in saddened plight,

As evil fate would see,

I saw her tears run down her cheeks

In silent testimony

“She’s healed by now” I hoped to be

But that’s untrue I see

For she has shunned us me out her life,

Like a pecker does it’s tree

It hurts me too to know her plight

And still sit quite carefree

It hits me when I see her smile

While inwardly she bleeds

I hope she finds herself again,

Her old spirited smile

For that’s what I patiently wait

Her love could go a mile!

Dont even ask where that came from!

:P

Just me and my silly rhymes. . . . I guess  . . .

P.S.

Second Pic: "Untill My Dying Day" by Maxinne Marie


pps.
cross posted on Silent Recollections