Missing you, Angel

She came,
She smiled
I just saw her smiling.
I just saw her hair,
Prevented by a mere clip
From bringing upon an evening.

Her smile,
A Flamboyant spring on course
Washing away all lies
Her hair,
The dark dense blanket of cloud
Over my face and eyes.

I miss her,
I know she would miss me too
One thing that we both could not say
Will be said once, if true…

Sleepless Scribble (Contd.)

4:45 AM

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Alone again, I crept in. It is dark tonight. It was darker when I entered the lounge. I knew there would be no one here. So, I was not very careful while breaking the silence. I opened the door which made a painful screeching sound, and walked in. The door closed behind, leaving the lounge in dark – the way it used to be – the way I like it – the way, we liked it! The lounge is the place I dwell in and the best place I hangout with my friends and her. Tonight, there is no one here. Neither my friends and nor her. Still I walked in. The air was free, silent, dark and homogeneous. I breathed in – felt fresh! My footsteps created a few puffs of dust as I walked towards the corner – my favorite corner in the lounge, where we used to sit together and talk – talk all night! The floor was dusty – I was sad to see that. The abandonment and vivid desertion of the place accumulated lot of dust. I wish she would be here – now.

I breathed in – felt fresh! It was her fragrance – again! “Am I dreaming?” I asked myself. How on earth would I feel her here – tonight, when she is far away from the lounge? I could feel her as if she held my hands and looked deep inside me – Dilse! I could feel her hair flying in the absent breeze. I could feel her missing touch all over me. It was a pleasure, yet shivering! I looked around again. I could see nothing in the dark, apart from the rays of light coming out from the distant lamppost, coming through the ventilators and cracks on the windows, and falling on the various parts of the lounge. I could smell her as though she was here with me – holding me, like older times. I extended my hand and tried to call, against all odds, “Sho…” A cold hand came from behind me and covered my lips. I quivered! I moved around in a flash – there was no one again! I looked around – the darkness laughed at me. I rested my palm on the table, near my corner – our corner. Gusts of dust blew and the door made another scorching sound and opened a little. I could see the first rays of sunlight coming in – it was almost dawn and I could hear the birds chirping outside, yet far-flung. It was time for me to leave. I could not sit today – I could not sing today – I could not meet her, for whom I come to the lounge. She was away – among those chirping avis. May be that’s where she belonged and that’s why she’s away tonight. I walked out, as slowly as I always did. I did not disturb the darkness much and neither the silence in the lounge. The dust I puffed up in the air would settle down soon, I know. And she will always be here with me, when I come back – to hold my tongue and stop me from nuisance.

The morning rays cleansed my face, as I walked back home – alone again!

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My Sleepless Scribbles: One, Two

Selfishly desperate thoughts

Khudaya vey . . . ishq hai kaisa yeh ajeeb rey . . . . Dil ky kareeb laya dil ka naseeb rey . . . . I seek, seek to be yours, fight, fight to be yours . . . Ankhoun sey khwab ruthay, apnoun ky sath chutay . . . . Dream, dream it was that you and me together. . . Pyasay tarap rahay hain, sahil kareeb rey . . . Near, near you are to me but until i open my eyes after that the distance between us is more then i can even consider thinking of. . . Reach, you aren't my destination and reach i can towards you but somehow i don't want to somehow everything i desire everything i thought was mine i don't want it anymore. . . Dil ky kareeb laya dil ka naseeb . . . . Feelings, felt you so close last night . . . Yet i say you aren't mine yet sometimes even feeling such things i show my desperateness to be with you . . . My words never make sense, this time yet again i leave my love . . . My feelings. . . My care . . . My emotions for you in these dots . . . Hoping you to understand . . . Hoping you to shed some tears for me . . . Hoping you to remember me even if its just for 5 minutes . . . yes i learnt 5 minutes are more then enough . . . . Khudaya vey hayeee, ishq hai yeh kaisa ajeeb . . . . . . . . . . I sound so selfish naah, kya kroun shahyad hai mayri aarzo kamini . . . Mayray khwab bhi kaminay . . . Is dil sey ab toh sada bhi aa rahi hai key . . . . Yeh hazoor bhi KAMINAY . . . . .



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where are you

where is everyone guys?
where are u stephen ... I miss ur micro humour
where are u asbah .... I miss ur honest posts
where are u sandeep .... I miss ur everytime something new in store attitude in each of ur blog posts
where are u pink orchid ... I miss everything u ever wrote, ur an amazing writer... tc and god bless! do awesome in ur personal life and then return to louge, take ur time but always remember that louge wont ever be complete without u
where are u pratsie ... more then anyone else that is out of scene, its u, whose impact is the most... hope all gets back in ur life to normal state soon!! the louge miss the amazing creative bloggger that ur
where are u where are u leo ... the louge is impatient to the master poet in u, there is always an essence missing till ur works keep coming regularly
where are u sochu, nuchu, zindagi migzara... louge starves for the cuteness u have
where are u hashan ... if louge is a pack of cards, ur the king of ace, where is ur work where are u tan da.... louge misses ur responsible eyes when it looses its path deep in the blackness of nights, u remember the days when u and kajal use to pave the louge's way to dusk :) I miss that all

where are u pulkit... 1 month earlier... when u were scoffin with ur least prepared semester exams then too...u use to write something here everyday! and from past 1 month when ur sitting on couch in ur only holiday season of the year... where is ur enthusiasm gone! Pulkit replies - I know everyone and everything is same but yet something is missing... and I am rather sure of it! that to my senses... something for sure is missing!

PULKIT
POETIC CRIES

The mirror in my heart

" I'll be missin u... :-( "

" Will be here be4 u know it "

" Don't go.... pls... I'll be alone "

" I've already boarded the train "

" :-( "

" Hugs n kisses... Biyeee... "

" G Nite.... See u in 2 days "

12:30'ish - I dozed off...

8:12 AM - Waking up alone sucks....

8:30 AM - Finally got outta my sheets...

Ever so slowly, I started brushing... listening to one of my playlists. It was then I saw it. That large piece of glass, The life-sized mirror she placed in our hallway. The mirror in which she checks herself, head to foot, before going out everytime.

I MISS SEEING HER....

This mirror has registered and reflected her lavish physique so many times. It has possessed her, as much as i had, as passionately as i had. Light reflected from her frame falling on the surface of the this plane mirror, angle of reflection equalling the angle of incidence, finally portraying her splendid virtual image.

Excerpts from my physics book brushed thro my mind. Light behaves as both waves and particles.

Particles.... Molecules...

Molecules of her....

Molecules which were reflected....

Molecules which were retained... Molecules of her...

I went near the mirror. I think I'm in love with this piece of glass. I touched it ; Cold...

Why am I not blessed with a heart which is cold as this mirror. A heart which forgets everything once the person moves away. A heart which only reflects love and does not reproduce it, to torment me with memories of her being with me... Hmmm... Just then I came to peace... My heart is also a mirror... A rear view mirror...

On a moment of silliness, I stepped to the side and looked behind the mirror. Don't know why I did that. Perhaps to find her hiding behind it, I couldn't stop myself from smiling at the stupidity of my love.

I took my mobile.

" Come back... pls... ASAP... I think i'm losin my sanity "

P.S. - Dunno if this pic prompt is still open... Anyways, felt like penning my crazy thought.

-^- ARUN KUMAR -^-

My Never

Kabhi Kabhi mayray dil main khayal aata hai......
Key jaisey tujh ko banaya gaya hai mayray liye....
Tu ab sey pehley sitaroun main bas rahi thee kahein...
Tujhey zameen per bulaya gaya hai mayray liye....

My playlist has gone mad today, my mind is so numb at the moment, drugs are doing wonders, no pain no stress, but when am so numb all i can think about is you. I wasn't missing you, yes its a lie, but who cares you are above all the existence of me. I wonder in the distant lands just to forget who i am and who you were for me. But MEMORIES, MOMENTS, THOUGHTS, MUSIC they all just make me remember you so much. I lived a whole life with you, time was long enough for me to live a whole life. You were my existence, that now when you are gone my existence is yet another question !

Bolo naah, Bolo naaaah....
Tayra mayra pyar hai key nahi....
Bolo naah
Tayra mayra pyar hai key nahi...
Ankhoun sey ankhein mila key....
Bolo naah
Jawaab doh mayray sawal kaa...

I say someday I'll forget the color of your eyes, the sound of your voice will be unfamiliar.... Someday I'll forget that I once loved you, the feelings will have faded, someday I'll forget... But thats so untrue another lie which has no need to be told but yet i say, i say that i'll forget you, coz i want to move on, i am moving on... I have found so many people which i like, not love but liking someone is the first step... Ankhoun sey ansoo piye hontoun pey tayra naam liye... Aaj raat bhi neend naa aaye gi ! Another night for me to remember you, for me to be more numb and high at the same time in your love. How can a person fall so in love with someone that he forgets everything around, even the people who care about him ? Then i say again.... That i'll forget.... forget everything we had... and still have, the way we still talk to each other, why does it still have feelings ? I just don't get it....

Badle raaste jharne aur nadi,
Badli deep ki timtim,
Chedhe zindagi dhun koi nayee,
Badli barkha ki rimjhim,
Badlengi rituyein adaa,
Par mein rahungi sada,
Ussi tarah teri bahon mein baahein daalke,
Har lamha, har pal...

The way you blush when you think of me, the way I smile when I remember your words, the way I almost wanna pass out when someone mentions you, the way I wanna go to bed early just so I can dream of you... The way I wanna hold your hand, the way I write your name on my books while i am studying, the way I wish I shared every moment with you, the way my heart beats faster and the way I feel when I imagine you with me... Yes i'm just like every other guy, who's ever wanted to be held by someone else and I'm just like every story, hoping for a love-filled ending.... But i know this ending won't ever come... but i still wait because I'm human too, and I somehow still feel, after all I've been through, I still feel love...

Hold me now
I'm 6 feet from the edge
And I'm thinkin
Maybe 6 feet ain't so far down

Maybe it isn't that bad loosing you, loosing what we have, coz the only thing which we lost is US BEING TOGETHER, but we did prove that nothing can finish the love, the care, the respect, the emotions we still have for each other... nothing can !! We're so close, yet so far, the distance between us, can't be measure, just by thinking of it, yes my heart does break, my legs do tremble... Yes i do become torn, twisted, petrified... When finally, finally, I did found someone so dear, so precious to me, YOU my love......Why did you have to perish from my sight? It's all like a dream. And I woke up too soon.

Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

*Playlist going wild*

Hey you are still my strength, that keeps me walking. You are still the hope, that keeps me trusting. You still are the light to my soul. You still are my purpose...you're everything. YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING, and i'll never let you go... except at the moment when i would be commit to someone, someone who starts loving me, someone who does actually care for me, at that moment, i would completely belong to her, my heart, my soul, my loyalty, my trust, my devotion, my existence and even the reflection of my eyes would be only for her... BUT ...... you'll remain something for me which i have no words to explain, neither it is worth explaining, Because,

I'll ALWAYS LOVE YOU

Dear Prats

Dear prats

this is a letter not only from me....but from all of us. You can't leave TWL....you might have joined the Lounge on your terms....but you can't leave it whenever you want. and Prats you are a fighter.

Hell gurl!!! i just met you....and if in two days you make me feel this way, imagine what your friends whom you have made in TWL from the beginning are feeling. only two days back i went through your poetry teaching post...and hell i have to learn a lot from you...and so do others....

You are one of the lounge's most loved members.....please don't throw that love away....

We need you here..

your admirer, student, fellow lounge mate and friend,

Freelancer

P.S| please read this once

तेरे लिए...

अगर तू मुझको पढ़ रही है, तो मुझसे ज्यादा खुश और कोई नहीं... ये महफिल तेरी सजाई हुई है... ये रौशनी तेरी की हुई है, ये आलम तेरा किया हुआ है... तू कहती है मैं भूल जून - तू कहती है मैं पास न आयुं... लेकिन मैं जून भी तो कहाँ जाऊँ? हर गली तेरी घर से होके गुज़रती है... हर रास्ता तेरे रस्ते से जुर जाती है... दिल कहता है के मैं तुझे भरी महफिल में रुसवा कर जाऊँ, और तू कहती है के मैं चुप ही रहूँ... बेबसी, नाकामी और तेरी याद मुझे सोने नहीं देती... मैं भटकता रहता हूँ उन्ही गलियों में, जहाँ से कभी तू गुज़रा करती थी...

तेरे बिन ना जीना है ना मरना,
बिन तेरे ना है एक पग भी चलना

तेरे बिना सुना है आलम सारा,
बीते दिन ना आएंगे लौट के दोबारा

वो बीते दिन क्यों याद आये,
पल पल मुझको तेरी ही याद सताये

शयेद कभी तुझे भी हम याद आयें
तेरे बिन सुनी है मेरी दिलकी वो राहें

I Miss You ..

Life would have been different

If we were Together

I would have been livin my life

But You left me, and i forgot to breathe

Looking back all i get is a tear

Wish you were here very near

groaning at the wickedness of my fate

I realise Now its too late

waking up with wet eyes i miss you !

Wish i never would have met you

Deep scar in my heart is not healed

The evil side of you is revealed

I hate you, as much as i love you

I cry at night thinking of you

Losing you was part of the game

For you played it so lame

My love for you is pure, i cry no more

For you will stay in my heart forever

As the Star fall down, i wish for you

My heart silently whispers *I MISS YOU*

I miss you O my love

I miss you
It's all I have to say
You're missing
I thought it better that way
But it kills me
And I can't fight this reliance
I'm drowning here
Amid this sick, strange silence
I need you
To tell you what I feel
To hear you
And remember what is real
When we said nothing
But it said so much
When we ran away
To get in touch
I feel you here
So lost inside me
I need you now
Or I'll fall apart completely
I miss myself
That piece you still hold
This space is hollow
Leaves me so cold
I can't forget you
I never will
The way you changed me
Because I miss you still...

Silence Of The Night

silence of the night is haunting
every sound made echoes through
then dies
silence of the night is haunting me...

thousands of beautiful eyes shine through
and watch my every move
piercing through my flesh
and eating out my heart...

the pain that kills though the haunting night
screams are echoeing across my mind...

it starts to rain
water falling slowly through my window
my hand inside it
giving me a feeling which always haunt me...

i am standing in the rain
Wishing it might wash away
What there is inside of me
Wash away
The love which i had for you...

the lightning flashing across the sky
Cames your memory and tears to my eye
And I wonder do you still love me
If it rings that it’s not true
I will shy away from you
So that you can forget me...

but the jealousy is there too
just waiting for its turn
to eat me through
finish what hate has started
and fear too...

all began with an open window to the sky
silence of the night is haunting
don't try to listen or it will stab you too
its terrifying what thoughts may come
its haunting me, this scary silence of the night......

We are still together

Time.
How it goes by so quickly.
But look at us now,
Standing together,
Like nothing has changed.

Touch my hand,
Does it feel warm?
Feel my heart,
Does it still beat?

Your hair is still blonde,
Your eyes still black.
Are my eyes still brown
That captivated you years before?

Still
My heart beats for you.
My hands start to shake.
My body starts to break,
But nothing ever is broken.

Still
I touch your smile,
Make dewdrops
Out of teardrops
And hold you close,
Never to let go.

Still
I love you…
Always.

Do you see the stars
Fly through the sky?
Do you feel the fire
That burns behind my eyes?
The sun is still young,
And the world doesn’t turn
Because you’re always here,
By my side.

Do you feel it?
Do you see it?
Still, I…

Still
My heart beats for you.
My hands start to shake.
My body starts to break,
But nothing ever is broken.

Still
I touch your smile,
Make dewdrops
Out of teardrops
And hold you close,
Never to let go.

Still
I love you…
Always.

Nothing needs to be said.
You look at me,
I look at you,
And we’re both saying the same thing.
Without words,
Our hearts communicate as one,
Souls mingling,
Hands adjoined,
Standing together as one.
Just as it has always been…
And still…

Still,
You are my only.
Holding me captive
In your starlit smile.
Still,
Your hands touch mine,
Still,
You are here,
And we will never part.
Your wings are always spread,
Surrounding me,
And my arms are always round you,
Protecting you,
Protecting you from all harm.
Let us dream…
Let us dream together still.
Let us rise to the heavens,
Just like we always have…
Just like we always will…
Still…

Still
My heart beats for you.
My hands start to shake.
My body starts to break,
But nothing ever is broken.

Still
I touch your smile,
Make dewdrops
Out of teardrops
And hold you close,
Never to let go.

Still
I love you…
Always.

Still….
I love you….
I will always love you…
…Always…


Still....
WE ARE TOGETHER....
WE ARE STILL TOGETHER.....
.....and will always will be....

Still...
Hope survives....
AS I WAKE UP FROM THIS DREAM OF MINE