The mirror in my heart

" I'll be missin u... :-( "

" Will be here be4 u know it "

" Don't go.... pls... I'll be alone "

" I've already boarded the train "

" :-( "

" Hugs n kisses... Biyeee... "

" G Nite.... See u in 2 days "

12:30'ish - I dozed off...

8:12 AM - Waking up alone sucks....

8:30 AM - Finally got outta my sheets...

Ever so slowly, I started brushing... listening to one of my playlists. It was then I saw it. That large piece of glass, The life-sized mirror she placed in our hallway. The mirror in which she checks herself, head to foot, before going out everytime.

I MISS SEEING HER....

This mirror has registered and reflected her lavish physique so many times. It has possessed her, as much as i had, as passionately as i had. Light reflected from her frame falling on the surface of the this plane mirror, angle of reflection equalling the angle of incidence, finally portraying her splendid virtual image.

Excerpts from my physics book brushed thro my mind. Light behaves as both waves and particles.

Particles.... Molecules...

Molecules of her....

Molecules which were reflected....

Molecules which were retained... Molecules of her...

I went near the mirror. I think I'm in love with this piece of glass. I touched it ; Cold...

Why am I not blessed with a heart which is cold as this mirror. A heart which forgets everything once the person moves away. A heart which only reflects love and does not reproduce it, to torment me with memories of her being with me... Hmmm... Just then I came to peace... My heart is also a mirror... A rear view mirror...

On a moment of silliness, I stepped to the side and looked behind the mirror. Don't know why I did that. Perhaps to find her hiding behind it, I couldn't stop myself from smiling at the stupidity of my love.

I took my mobile.

" Come back... pls... ASAP... I think i'm losin my sanity "

P.S. - Dunno if this pic prompt is still open... Anyways, felt like penning my crazy thought.

-^- ARUN KUMAR -^-

The Unknown Soldier and his Wife

" Can you open the door now Mam?"

" See here Officer I can't I lost my child up few yards and lemme be in peace"

"I understand but my duty is to save remaining civilians"

"Then go save your Mom, just leave me alone, get lost!!, you and your bloody duty, who the fuck are you to tell me what to do? God made me live and God will decide when I die, NOT YOU!!"

"See here Mam, My General orders me to do stuff and I do it, If you don't comply I'll use force"

"I care two Hoods about your sick general, get the **** out of my face"

"I am breaking the door mam You have left me no option"

"God Damn you!! Zombies you are, if you break the doors, I'll get trapped inside, its better you just go, I'll come out when I feel like, are you not human mister?"

"In that case I will hoist you from above and I will have no further discussions Maam"

She started cursing him in words I dare not pen down.

He had climbed half way up the wall, try the pic for a take on the visual, but what he saw on the other side made the army man shiver with fear.

The woman was tied to four landmines. Any attempt to force the door would have blown them both.

The woman started crying.

"So now Mr. Superman can you go?" The woman said glaring at the hoisted soldier.

" I'll call for back up, but it would take 4 hours I guess and it's getting dark" -he reminded himself.

He could see fear in the woman's eyes. She would panic if left alone.
He got to work, gathered some food made a contrapment and hoisted himself at a level where the woman could see him.
The woman gazed at his efficiency with adulation.
" Now we can go to sleep" -he said.
"But what if someone tries to break the door at night or you fall down from that nest of yours"
" I have set up a alarm system, as for you you don't move too much in sleep, I hope you are peaceful in sleep. Take a nap , it will do you good."-soldier.

She extended her hand so that the soldier could take it. The warmth felt good.

Pic-Nic 2000

This was the last time Ste was photographed, before his disappearance.

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2000 posts at Writers Lounge!!! Woohooooooooo!! yipppeeeeeeee!! A biiiiiiiiig hug to you all for making this possible. This calls for a celebration. Ste ko maaro :-)

Pic-Nic 1999

Her: “Time to move on, honey. I am leaving you and this city forever”

Him: “Are you? Wow! Can you?”

Her: “I can. I have no choice. Enough of dealing with the idiotic you. I really can”

Him: “Wow! Can you?”

Her: “For you everything is a joke. You drive me mad with that forever smile of yours. Can’t you see that I am hurt? Can’t you see that all I want is you to listen and act sane? Can’t you see that all I want is some seriousness and not one of your jokes? Can’t you at least try to understand me? Can’t you be a normal guy like all others? Why did I love this good for nothing crackpot in the first place. My mistake!!! The first and last mistake of my life”

*With these words she burst into tears. She rushed to the rest room hiding her face in the handkerchief. She stood there for a few minutes. Suddenly she felt a shadow loom over her. She looked up and her jaw dropped. The girls inside let out a collective shriek*

Him: How can you? Mistakes like me are like golden shit. You have to be blessed to be at the receiving end. And I will be there with you always. Even if it’s this shit-hole. It’s as simple as this. Oops…Sorry girls…you may continue.

Pic-Nic 1998

Her: “Time to move on, honey. I am leaving this city forever”

Him: “Can you? I want you to stay”

Her: “I can. I have no choice. You have left me with no choice. And no words”

Him: “Don’t I have the rights on you to demand?”

Her: “I expected you to understand. I wanted you to support my decision. But all you gave me is that blank look. All you gave me is a week of silence. I feel that the distances have grown. You won’t find me even if you want to. You won’t see me even if you want to. There will always be a barrier in between us. A barrier which you can never jump over or see through. And you are no longer the one who used to fight all odds and jump all barriers for my smile. You have changed”

*With these words she burst into tears. She rushed to the rest room hiding her face in the handkerchief. The last thing she wanted was to leave back memories of a girl who can’t control her emotions. She stood there for a few minutes. Suddenly she felt a shadow loom over her. She looked up and her jaw dropped. The girls inside let out a collective shriek*

Him: I have not changed. I am still the same old crackpot. I was too dazed to react. I had no clue what to say. There are no barriers I can’t jump over to see that smile of yours. There are no screens which can stop me from seeing you. It’s as simple as this. Oops…Sorry girls…you may continue.

Pic-Nic 1997

Her: “Time to move on. I am leaving this city forever”

Him: “Can you? I won’t let you”

Her: “I can. You have left me with no choice. You have reduced to being a blot on my family”

Him: “You are mine. I have the rights on you. I won’t let you leave like that”

Her: “The distances have grown. From the day you mailed our snaps to dad. From the day you chose to make all those intimate moments public. You won’t find me even if you want to. You won’t see me even if you want to. You broke my trust. You reduced me to a whore. Nothing can change that. Nothing can break this barrier between us. A barrier which you can never jump over or see through”

*With these words she burst into tears. She rushed to the rest room hiding her face in the handkerchief. The last thing she wanted was to leave back memories of a weak girl and give him the impression that he had succeeded in his attempts. She stood there for a few minutes. Suddenly she felt a shadow loom over her. She looked up and her jaw dropped. The girls inside let out a collective shriek*

Him: I can jump over any barrier. It’s as simple as this. There is no escaping me. Whether you stay in this city or move to a new city. Whether you stay in this country or move to foreign locales. You won’t be able to escape you past. Oops…sorry girls if I scared you all…you may continue. And you….till the next time….goodbye…..we will meet again.

Pic-Nic 1996

Her: “Time to move on, honey. I am leaving this city forever”

Him: “Can you? I want you to stay”

Her: “I can. I have no choice. There are lots of smiles at stake”

Him: “Don’t I have the rights on you to demand?”

Her: “The distances have grown. You won’t find me even if you want to. You won’t see me even if you want to. There will always be a barrier in between us. A barrier which you can never jump over or see through”

*With these words she burst into tears. She rushed to the rest room hiding her face in the handkerchief. The last thing she wanted was to leave back memories of a girl who can’t control her emotions. She stood there for a few minutes. Suddenly she felt a shadow loom over her. She looked up and her jaw dropped. The girls inside let out a collective shriek*

Him: There are no barriers which love can’t jump over. There are no screens which love can’t see through. It’s as simple as this. Oops…Sorry girls…you may continue.

Red is for danger

"You can't do it , you are a chicken"- Rahul.
"Ya that's why you can't play with us kiddo"- Ronit leered at him.
Few of the other boys sniggered with distaste.
Ramgopal's face grew red. He was a constant target of innate humour. Specially after Ramu's
new movie, he became a crackpot for jokes. Today he would end it all.

" I will do it"- Ramu's face tight with tension.
The boys looked at each other whispered something among themselves and nodded heads.
So all of them proceeded towards their destination. But, only one had to go beyond, cross the limit.
Ramu's forehead was all sweaty now as Ronit brought a chair for him.
" Don't worry you just take a peak and shout 'Jai Ho ' and duck quickly. "-Ronit explained"No one will see."
"I am more afraid about what I WILL see" Ramu murmured.
He carefully stood on the chair and edged his way upwards, what luck!
the girl's toilet looked barren. He would at last be one of them and play with their group.
He became so happy and confident he prolonged his Jai Ho and scanned the whole toilet.

What he saw just below him almost made him yelp with fright. It was his big sister watching all the time frowning. She had seen the whole episode and hadn't uttered a sound.

" Lets see what your mother says to this " - she spat and ran away.
Thinking of it makes me laugh to this day.

Hidden and Concealed - Her life denied

She died. On a cold december night.

She was buried.... Buried ! My guardian angel !... In a small space inside the dirt...

I didn't have the stomach to see her being nailed in a coffin and entombed within a hole.

I ran... Away from my home... Away from her memories...

At some point, her memories caught up with me. I returned to our home. Everything we used was still in place, unmoved. Our room, our bed, her robes, her perfume... a sudden attack of fresh anguish struck me... I've irrevocably lost her... Her flawless face concealed for ever... I longed to see her... one last time...

I went to the cemetery. The sad, beautiful garden nurtured with human flesh.

I walked through the city of death. I found her space. "Loving wife, Devoted daughter, in the grace of God" . She is there, below the dirt, decayed. I sobbed. It was getting dark, The cemetery guard wanted me to leave. I didn't want to leave her. I tried to hide. I roamed around in the city of death, small compared to the other city, the living one and yet how much more have died than who are living .I reached the farthest part and hid there.

The angel of the night had spread her wings, darkness loomed. I came out. I walked slowly and quietly through the land full of dead people. There were tombs and crosses everywhere, I couldn't find where she was... Like a blind man, i wandered through the silent yard in the moonless night. My feet went through metal crosses, stones and broken flowers from the loved ones. With my fingers, i felt the name on every tomb... searching for the feel of hers...

Hours passed. I was still searching...

I was cold. My knees became weak. My breath deepening with my every step. I could not walk anymore. I cried. I've lost her even in her death... I cried... I shouted... I called her... I could feel the night getting more and more darker... blacker...I became unconscious...

They found me, the next day.... Lying on her grave unconscious.

- Arun Kumar -

My interpretation of the pic - The guy wants to be with her even after her death, visits secretly the land of the dead... just to seize a few moments with her alone.

P.S - this is my pic-nic themed write for this week...

n to the admins... can we post more than one of these themed posts per week.??

P.P.S - I wanted so much to be the 1988 th post....(my birth year)... missed it by a few minutes... :-( ended up as 1990th post..

I am BLUE without YOU !

I hide behind the bush

Without making a hush

But I feel blue

When i don see you

I sneak out with guts

but with your anger, it melts

I beg for your pardon

Singing your favorite song again

You turned red with your anger

But i will keep playing my guitar

Just to make you smile

I know, you are sulk just for a while

I will buy you a teddybear

If you stay with me here

I won't let you go ever

We are meant to be together

My sweetest angel you are

Hold my hand, please don't go far

I will serve you like your slave

Only with you i feel alive

P.S : After ages m bak to WL.. Feels like m bak home :). Hey sandy nice theme btw..Poem for Pic-Nic theme..Keep rocking guys..

Pic-Nic: Picture 1

To demystify the picture, we are listing down different interpretations of this picture on which you are required to pen a story or a poetry. These are just our interpretations and you are free to think beyond this for your post:

• You are being watched
• Wherever you go, I am there
• Mad ways to propose
• Revenge
• Stalker
• Desperate guys
• Desperate to say "Sorry" etc.

Go ahead. Pen your masterpiece.

- Sandeep