Showing posts with label Zendagi Migzara. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Zendagi Migzara. Show all posts

May 22, 2009

Brutal Love.......

Shione had been dating Josh for quite sometime now, enough for her to be madly in love with him. They had always spent time outside amongst the hustle and bustle of the city. Both had dreamt of having a quiet corner all to themselves where they could share their special moments..

Today the day had come, she had invited him over for dinner. She had spent the entire day cooking a sumptuous meal for the two of them, doing up her house, the table, setting the crockery and cutlery to match the occasion, as perfect as she could get... Finally with an hour left before his arrival, she made sure that she looked her best. Donning the white dress, Josh had gifted her, she touched up her face, her face glowing with happiness..

The door bell rang. She rushed to her dressing table, took one last look at herself and when she was content ran to answer the door. Holding her breath, she opened the door. Josh was standing right there with a bouquet of red roses wearing a smile on the face. But there was something odd about his demeanour today, something which made her uncomfortable. Shirking her baseless thoughts, she took him by his arm and led him into the sitting room. She smelt alcohol in his breath and realized his walk wasn't steady, and so were her thoughts now..

She looked at him and asked, "Are you alright?" A devilsh smile escaped him while his eyes scanned her from head to toe crossing the lines of decency. She froze. She parted her lips to ask again and a thunderous blow came smashing on her rouge cheeks. She got thrown, her head landing heavily on the corner table. She flinched from the pain, felt warm, viscous liquid trickling down her forehead and her lips swollen. She felt her world quake, fear engulfing her..

Lighting a cigarette, he looked down at her and said, "My friend commented that you are the most beautiful woman and that he could have done anything to have you in his life. I wonder how many men have ogled over you? Only I own you. You shall pay the price to have made a place in the fantasies of other men." He exhaled a waft of smoke, allowing it to hang in the air. Alarm ran through her, her mind went berserk.

He pulled her up by her hair, she tried to scream, but the look in his eyes silenced her. He moved her face closer to his, inhaled another puff and smothered it on her face. His ghoulishness a darker tinge now. She tried to move, extricate herself from this monster, but all she could manage was catching the thin air. Before she knew, the cigarette butt had mapped her face charring her once supple skin. Muffled screams escaped through the searing pain. She found it difficult to breathe. The pain, the shock numbed her senses, taking away her strength to resist the madness, to fight. She kept staring at him, hundreds of questions queuing her mind, now reflecting in her eyes, hoping that he would just let her be.


He shuffled through the neatly set table and returned with a fork and before she knew what was happening, the prongs of the fork dug into the flesh of her arms, blood flooding her once white dress. She screamed loudly unable to bear the ruthlessness, she heard herself pleading to him, begging him to show her some mercy. He liked this part, the part of dominance, woman insubordination, he got a high now that he had enslaved her. She slumped back.. He finally left...

The blades of the ceiling fan slashing through this morbid silence, the room disheveled, all bespoke the violence..

Lying down in the corner of the room, floating in the pool of blood; she felt her confidence broken into a thousand pieces, self respect devastated, completely stripped of any emotion, ashamed of her inability to stand for herself..... The girl in her dead forever.. She gazed at this new found emptiness...

For Fear had a face now, fear that remain caged in her mind.... All because of "Love".

P.S: This is pure fiction. A first try at writing a story..

May 16, 2009

Dear Friend....


You are my voice
when words betray me

You are my vision
when pessimism clouds me

You are my crutch
when I stumble

You are my strength
when failure befriends me

You are my guide
when I lose my way

You are the saviour
when I am in trouble

You are the ray of hope
when life fails me..

You are My Friend
For I am incomplete without you!!

Thanks for being there... Always


P.S: Friends are my wealth, I have earned them..

May 15, 2009

Terror Fridays - 1


T
orturing
Experience
Riding
Reckless
Ousting
Reasoning

P.S: First try with Acrostics.. Inspired by everyone here. Please bear it was too bad...

May 13, 2009

Hope..

I cling onto the rope of hope,
Hope that you once gave me,
that which now snaps -

with every broken promise,
with every shattered dream,
with that unbroken silence

Our relationship threadbare..
what remains... is a strand -
that which binds the remnants of our past

This snaps.. the love in me will breathe its last!!

P.S: Tried a hand at 55 fiction, guys guide me through...


May 12, 2009

Dhoondti hoon tumhe!!

Dhundhli si kuch yaadein
Palkon main saja li hai maine
Dhoondti hoon unme
Kuch khoye lamhe

Kabhi Hansi Muskurahoton main
To kabhi un bhigi siskiyon main
Dhoondti hoon tumhe!!

Un soonsaan galiyon main
Anjaan bheed ki saaye main
Dhoondti hoon tumhe!!

Un sukhe hue phoolon main
Un bejaan tasveeron main
Dhoondti hoon tumhe!!

Milon faili tanhaiyi main
Dhadakte dil ki gehrayee main
Dhoondti hoon tumhe!!

Un Khamosh aahon main
Toote sapno ki rahon main,
Dhoondti hoon tumhe!!

Khali dil ke kamre main
Sooni aakhon ke aaine main
dhoondti hoon tumhe!!

Aaj bhi talaash jaari hai -
Aasman ke chadar tale
Zameen ke baahon pare...


May 11, 2009

Fight is on!


Stung by constant discouragement
Consumed by utter resentment

Magnified are my noble failures

By those self - nominated stellars


Impregnated is my mind with pessimism

Preyed I am by stoicism

Slave to bursts of jealousy

Made susceptible to my fallacy


My insides cry of injustice done

From these cowards would I not run

My self esteem singed
From the mental torture I cringe


No more this trauma, would I swallow

Which has left me so hollow

I burn this cruelty on pyre
Allow the hurt with the smoke, disappear


Shadows of doubts now devoured

I break free from that invisible cord
I am the warrior, I am the sword!!

May 10, 2009

Would you?


Would you take my hand,

and allow me to be thine..


Would you take me in your embrace
Caress me with your alluring gaze


Would you feel my breath

and fill my soul with your endearing warmth


Would I tingle under your touch

and see my body with desire, flush


Would you burn with desire

For our togetherness, would you aspire?


Would your lips melt against mine

Awakening those emotions unknown


Would you hold me tonight

Shade me with your comfort

Share your love, a delight


Baby, would you?


Thanks for being there Mom!!

For those unspoken words
Through those swinging moods
During those deepest wounds
Thanks for being there, Mom

For giving an ear
During those growing years
For wiping my tears
Thanks for being there, Mom

For the words of courage
During the pain and its bondage
To calm the rising rage
Thanks for being there, Mom

For the faith so firm
‘Shall not bring thy shame’
That you believe and affirm
Thanks for being there

For the love so abundant
From a person so benevolent
“Thank you, Lord for such a present”
Thanks for being there, Mom.

P.S: Cross posted from www.sheenasimran.blogspot.com

May 9, 2009

Longing..


I don't know,
Why I miss you so....

A longing that is too painful..
I dream of you too often
to believe your absence

Tears defeat me frequently,
I know you are nowhere in my life
Yet I await YOU...

The moments of togetherness
are still too fresh
and it hurts that I can only see them
through my mind's eye
And too hard to believe that they are
No longer, A Reality!!!

Woman...... The Price you pay for!!!


Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!!
The scream tore through the darkness,

Stopped me in my tracks,

I froze to the deafening silence.

Silhouettes of men against the foggy night

Scrambling for life,

They vanished out of sight

A frame slithered

My heart twitched

Amidst bitter sobbing

Someone shrieked,
“Help me..”

I slashed through the thick bush

My mind totally numb

I felt the blood rush

I tried not to succumb

Shreds of clothes strewn around,

Wriggled on the ground

Was a woman – naked.....


Wrapped in muck and blood,

Her hands bound with cord..

Her eyes devoid of expression

Her face starved of emotions

Her body writhed in pain,

She was floating in unknown terrain..


She was preyed upon

By ruthless scavengers called men,

Every inch of her body, clawed at

By those hungry vultures

She must have tried hard,

To stave off those beasts

As they raped her again and again..

Every breath of hers

Must have pleaded mercy

But she was ripped apart

With that male thrust..


A scar on her womanhood,

Soul devastated beyond repair

Dreams shattered,

Dignity snatched

She is reduced to nothing,


But a log of wood..


P.S: This is a write which I have been wanting to share here.. Cross posted from my blog..

May 8, 2009

"Mumbai Local"

I run down the building stairs,
hop into the rickshaw -
the beginning of my day!

The roads pretty empty,
The pervasive 'Michael Schumachers' - race through,....
screeeech.... finally halts at the station.

I jump out,the 'kangaroo' active -
take two stairs - reach the bridge.
"Tock - tock - tock"
The sound of my coming,
Thanks to my heels.

"Excuse -me please", "Side - Side - Side"
"Damn, can't you see where you are going?"
"What the heck, you stamped on my feet" ---
Amidst these verbal clutter,
I squeeze my way out of the rat-hole
and manage to surface on the platform..

ANNOUNCEMENT ---"The train arriving on platform No. 3 is slow local for CST".
Everyone gets geared up to enter the battlefield -
yes, it is a war of who manages to make a furrow through
and find a place to park one's bum -----
Bags fastened around the shoulders,
Saree 'pallus' shoved,
Precariously hanging 'dupattas' hog-tied,
The long tresses rolled up into what resembles a "cock's tail"--- e
everyone takes their position...

There the train arrives - in 10 seconds,
there is a massive exodus from the train,
and our "warriors" bundling up into the train.

The train chugs out of the platform.
MELODRAMA ----
"Aat ja (Get inside)", "Madhech kashala ubhi aahe (why are you standing in the way)",
"Majhi saadi soda, Majhi purse soda" (leave my saree, leave my purse),
"Vedich aahe" (you are nuts),
"pressure aa raha hai", (I'm not sure which pressure, they imply, anyways)
pechche se dhakka aa raha hai!!!!
Abuses flying from one section of the compartment to the other...

Suddenly, someone's screaming -
"mere baal", "majhi kes soda" (Leave my hair)
Some fellow-commuter, failing to find support to hold her weight,
is doing a 'Tarzan - Act' - उन्फोर्तुनातेलीhanging on to some poor soul's plaited tresses.

Bursts of laughter lighten the tension,
some empathize with the 'lady in pain'.

From some corner of the compartment,
songs pouring out, seasoned with beats & claps,
The marred - by - fate 'Lata Mangeshkars' and 'Sunidhi Chauhans' emerge -
their talent at display.

To accompany them,
there is the "Marathi - Bhajan" band doing their thing with dholaks and bajas.

Your mind can switch between the Bollywood and the Spiritual
Its an "a la carte menu", free of cost - any takers?

Already past 3-4 stations,
still trying to pave my way inside - manage to push through all sizes of arses -
getting a "not-so-needed" massage..

From a mile away,attempts begin at reserving a seat -
"tumhi kothe utarnar" (where would you be getting down)?
Seat dya ho mala (Give me the seat, ok).
After this "Kaun Banega Seatpathy"
the lucky ones - win the much coveted seat.(It's worse than standing for the elections)

SLEEPING BEAUTIES -
Commuters, comfortably ensconced in their seats -
the sleep-deprived or the "perennially struck by anaesthesia" lot"
awaiting their prince-charming" (their respective stations)

You look down - (open-mouthed sleepers)
right there, you can see the pit of one's mouth and count all their 32.

Some comfortably stretched on someone else's shoulders --
while they sleep like a baby,
the discomforted ones - swear under their breaths.

And then others, sway in every possible direction --
guided by their unperturbed sleep.
The gravitational forces are its peak in their case, I guess

Then there is an ongoing parade which happens --
people from diverse demographics,
strutting their wares - fruits, vegetables, dresses, clips, bangles, cosmetics etc etc..
oscillating from one end of the compartment to the other..

You also get a peek into the lives of the not-so fortunate ones --
Small innocent children - begging, sweeping inside the train,
craving for a few morsels of food.

The oldies rigged by the fate of life,
struggling to live the last few breaths of life..

It's a few stops from my destination -
all queue up at the exit.
Well getting off the train is not a concern --
the crowd acts as an escalator,
just stand,they will do the needful...

P.S: Can't think of anything today, too pooped out. Hence, cross posting a write up from my blog.Hope you like it. I guess buddies from Mumbai will be able to relate to this post better..






May 7, 2009

Girl, is this you??


The beads of sweat,
which once were your crown
Girl, why do they now seem
Like a crown of thorn..

Tears that were once
a glistening stream of emotions,
Girl, why do they now seem
An unfathomable weakness...

The drops of rain,
which once rolled on your tongue,
Girl, why do they now taste
Bitter than Poison...

The moments of Silence
that you once basked in
Girl, why do they now seem
Miserably deafening..

The sliver of moonlight
peeping through the curtains
which once danced on you face
on the rhythm of your breath
Girl, why do they now cause
A painful remorse!

Your eyes which once
mirrored the rainbow
Girl, why do they now
Reflect scary dark clouds?

The pearls of solitude
which once bejeweled you
Girl, why do they now
seem to slice your spirit through?

The once passionate kiss
that lingered on your cheeks
Girl, why do they now
seem to be a scar on your face?

The elixir of love,
which once filled the glass of your soul
Girl, why does that glass
now seemed cracked
that elixir escaping you!!

The sensuous embrace
which you so craved for
Girl, why do you shrink away
As if it were a tightened noose?

The tantalizing breeze
which once carried the songs of life
Girl, why don't they now sound
like music to your ears?

The sand on the beach
which once laced your feet
Girl, why do they now seem to
Carry you into the depths of the past

Girl, is this you?
Where are you going to?



May 6, 2009

भ्रष्टाचार

आज कल की है रीती
सब की चलती है राजनीती
सभी शासन के है भूके
एक दूसरे को गिराने की लिए है रुके

पैसे की है किम्मत
बस चलती दौलत की हुकूमत
भ्रष्टाचार है इनका जड़
जिसका नही है कोई तोड़

अगर होना हो परिक्षे मैं पास
तो दिखा दो इनको हरी घास
अगर चाहिए नौकरी
बस दे दो इनको पैसो की टोकरी
अपराधी को अगर करना है रिहा
तो पैसे बनते है इनकी दवा

सभी बनाना चाहते है अपनी सरकार
सभी जताना चाहते है अपना अधिकार
हाथ जोड़कर नेता है आते
और कई कसमे वादे है करते
पर जब मिलती है उन्हें कुर्सी
तो होती है शुरू इनकी चाप्रुसी

चंद पैसो के लिए
दंगा फसाद है ये करते
और देते है कई घाव
जो पैदा करता है तनाव
भूल जाता है भाई, भाई को
और गिरते है
लाशों के ढेर कई

भ्रष्टाचारी लोगों की उँगलियाँ डूबी रहती घी में
जब आम इन्सान जीता कठिनाई में

जाने कब ख़त्म होगा भ्रष्टाचार
क्या कभी होगा सभी लोगों में प्यार?



May 5, 2009

Ek Ehsaas!

Bewafa na samajhna,
agar pyaar na Nibha paye

Gustakhi na samajhna
agar dosti bhi na nibha paye

Bas itna jaan lena -
Jitni pyaar tumse kari thi
Na kabhi ki hai na hi kar payenge

Chodkar chale agar raah humari
Mudkar zaroor dekha kariye

Kabhi hum Yaad Aaye
To Is Mohabbat ki Kadar Zaroor Kijiye!!

The Ultimate Peace!

Hands that prayed for life once,

Now begs for the ultimate peace..


How easily did it pick that knife

That which oscillated between the hand & wrist

Tracing down the very lines of destiny

Like giving one last chance

Chance to breathe a little longer

And then dug deep into the veins..


Blood gushing out,

Streaming down those very hands,

Now blurring those lines of destiny

Flowing with it are

My deepest wounds,

The Pain, The Hurt

Agonies washed,

I feel the peace come on..


I see the whole world in a carousel

I am on a high,

I relive my life – in a matter of seconds

Those memories which were once coloured

Seem to fade away, some suddenly erased

I lose myself in its rhythm

A lullaby sung to me

I sink to those depths

Depths I din’t know existed – they soothe me..


Suddenly,

I suffocate

My breathing is laborious

Each breath heavier than the other

I am swathed in Darkness

I gasp, I struggle

I choke,

The insides of me churn

Emptiness seethes in

Voices around a mere echo,

My visions, they defeat me

I see the hand of death..

And I know – I have been granted the “ultimate peace”







May 3, 2009

The Dead Side of the Moon!!

As the day dies slowly
The sun lowered in its grave
The skies washed off, its hues
Instead, painted a velvety black, save
For a few Streaks of silver and blue

Drapes of darkness drawn
I breathe the stillness in
Held in the embrace of the moonlight
Purges me of thoughts malign

Hiding within is the real me,
That “Me” tries to break free,
That “Me” treads all the alleys within,
Sprinting, to escape the prison
Dodging the traps, resisting surrender

I submit myself to the silence outside
Sinking in the lap of this night
A riot of feelings within, without
Waves of emotions surging high
They tumble down my cheeks
I shiver, I shriek!

I look the sky in its eye (the moon)
That which is bestowed with praise
For the beauty that it beholds
Has found in many hearts, its place

Just like me,
That beauty is scarred
For it holds within
An elusive past,
Dark secrets,
Unfathomable blotch
Shady thoughts

I realize, I am the “Dead side of the moon”