Love Is What They Need...

A day when I fail to remember
Love that you all gave me
Zealously I pray, let it never happen
Hear my cries oh lord, hear me
Ever if it happens
I may please be forgiven
My memories have deserted me
Every moment it might be painful
Read my love for you in my eyes
Sadness is what they might speak

"I rushed to show this piece of paper to my mom! I somehow knew who's handwriting it was... my grandmother's!
"Mom, I saw this diary in my closet... went through a few pages and see what I saw."

My mom glanced through the pages. I was right! It was my grandmother's diary.
"Oh dear! I feel so sorry for her. May be she knew what was going to happen to her and hence, she wrote this."

I could see the tears in my mom's eyes.
My grandmother was a very cheerful lady...ever smiling! She always enjoyed meeting new people, talking to them, spreading smiles everywhere she went.

Suddenly she had started keeping to herself... she did not come out with us anywhere we went. She even stopped talking to me!
That afternoon when I came back from my school, she saw me through the door and refused to recognise me! At first I thought that she was joking, but later on I was told that she was not. In a few days' time, she stopped recognising everyone around and had started withdrawing herself from everything and everyone around.

After a few months, she became bed-ridden! She could not walk... out of fear she threw away the food I got for her. She spoke of the things unknown to us, may be something unknown to her as well. I always got angry on her whenever she did such strange things. I seldom could stop myself from shouting on her!

Today, she is no more...

Today when I read what she wrote a few years' back, it makes me feel guilty for what I did to her! She could do nothing but had to give in to that remorseful fate of hers.
Sorry Grandma, I know you are listening to my cries tonight.
Will you ever forgive me for what I did, ever?"

And with this, she closed her diary...

A tear fell on the last word she wrote. She was not sure whether that word had been wiped off by the tear that fell on it, but she knew that these words would have been heard by her grandmom and would have been forever etched in heart!

P.S.: I saw a post on the aged people affected by the Alzheimer's disease in a post at Leo's blog Conjuring Kreativity! My heart goes out to all those affected by Alzheimer's. I urge all their friends and relatives to treat them with love and compassion because these patients hardly know what they are doing, unlike us who are very much aware of our actions.

Crossposted from my blog-

PRAGMATIC UTOPIA

I am back..with a bang :D

PAPERS ARE OVER.

Look at that sentence…it looks incomplete..Yes it surely does…

there should be an “Alhamdulillah” after it…

or may be “finally”…

or may be “pheww”…

or may be a “screaming me”…

but it doesn’t matter..it’s a sentence I wanted to write from ages and ages ago…

or lets be honest…rather let me be honest..a sentence I wanted to write from about a month ago…why??? Because I started studying only a month back…the study u call a CA study…not the usual me reading some case law and remembering those weird names just because they sound…oh so weird…not because they are part of my examination syllabus (hell it’s such a horrible word!!!)

Whatever that sentence is peaceful…very peaceful..Alhamdullillah….

I want to write so many things..

want to tell so many things….

have started hating so many things….

have started loving so many things...

have so many people to blame…

have sooooooooo many people to thanks…

but I am lost…I mean am at a loss of words..Or may be am lost…whichever is true..I hardly care….the point is there are so many things in my mind that I am not able to comprehend them properly.. It feels like that auditing and costing exam.. Everything in my mind and me at a loss of word…or was I lost??? but now i don’t want to comprehend them….why…?? Because I am happy being like this…

Anyways..what am I doing…TALKING STUDIES ON BLOG ….oh God pls…no one …no one among you people is gonna tell me that I have changed….yes I know that’s true..but let’s keep it like “it’s for the good…”

Ok so the main point..exams are over..and my keyboard will be going under severe torcher….:D :D and may be even you guys :P…I have so much to write..but for the sake of this post let’s keep it till exams…

The good thing : they are over…ALHAMDULILLAH

The bad thing: i have screwed half of them…that amount to 3 outta 6 (what math :D)

The good thing: I realize now what Jaimy and Tarun were doing…when they were looking in the books…they weren’t murmuring..oh sure they weren’t….

The Bad thing: I was murmuring and dreaming while doing so :(

The good thing: I learnt the correct definition of the word “HARDWORK”

The bad thing: I feel I have to refresh my memory over the word “LUCK” (it has to be wid me ..has to)

The good thing: I know what FRIENDS mean..i mean all of them..Mom (yes I know I wrote friends) Lian, Angel, Ram, Fatin, Dhir, Shailu, Shanu,….i get emo when I think of u guys ..i mean…

mom thanks for tolerating my extreme behavior…

Lian, Angel..thanks for getting up in the middle of night and encouraging me with the most loving, caring and zealous words..

Ram..Thanks for being in touch..

Fatin..for the miss calls in morning :) it meant a lot….

Dhir..Oh dear I can’t list down how you supported me in my al sudden mood swings…

Shailu…for constantly reminding me that there someone whom I always tend to forget but he does remember :)…

and Finally Shanu..thanks for fighting, scolding, loving , caring, tolerating, encouraging me every time..It showed your care…even when you behaved in those inhumane ways..:P and even in all your gentleman-ness

There are a lot more ppl I missed…I know..i am sorry ppl…blame it on my poor memory over stuffed with those matter written in Arial, 10, black on CA books.

The Bad thing: I wasn’t being in touch..:( I am sorry….and I was being immature and extreme and emo..i am sorry again ….:(

The good thing: I came closer to my extremism

The bad thing: I still think it wasn’t me

The good thing: I have doubled my faith in GOD…and yes it’s because of the exams

The bad thing: I still sin a lot :(

Ahggg…it’s never ending….basically exams alone did a lot of change in me and my life..Besides the BIG BIG changes already happening in my life sans the effect of exams..I know I won’t be able to come at par with the expectations of people around me, this time…but believe me I tried…I miscalculated and then I failed…I am sorry..but I ll do it…if it goes wrong again…and that won’t let you ppl down…

WHAT AM I THINKING…the result aren’t out…that means I STILL HAVE TIME..and Inshaallah I ll pass…:) Don’t you remember ALLAH is all merciful and that God helps those who help themselves…hell…again I am thinking two contrasting statements at the same time :(..Isn’t this insecurity..nah..let’s say it’s the devil’s work..It’s so easy to do that :P..plus it improves your belief on GOD..YAY!!

So anyways…results aren’t out…and it ll take time…till then…aap main aur WL :P

The phone call !

My first attempt at 55 fiction!!! :P



The phone rang for ages! Finally someone answered.

Hello Spiky! Orangee must be sleeping?

Hello Molly! No, he's gone out.

It means the same..tell him if he doesnt call me tonight,i ll never ever talk again.

Oh! Are you very angry?

No,But I am very serious.

Orangee never called back!

Reminiscences

Flirting with sorrow,

Sorrow like a friend,

Friend who gave pain,

Pain that never did end.

End of a rocky road,

Road of love so dear,

Dear so much to my heart,

Heart of hers seemed so near.

Near were her eyes,

Eyes that charmed me so,

So pretty was her smile,

Smile from her heart it did show.

Show my love I did once,

Once when she was forlorn,

Forlorn for some reason I knew not,

Not for one moment was she alone.

Alone I became soon,

Soon she forgot that day,

Day did come when she told,

Told me to go forever away.

Away from her little life,

Life that meant to me so much,

Much of my joy she took away,

Away my dreams with her such.

Such is the pain she gifted,

Gifted to me to forever keep,

Keep in my heart now and forever,

Forever she told me to weep.

Weep I shall not, for I did not lose,

Lose she did my caring heart,

Heart that did once for only her beat,

Beat with joy from the very start.

Start I shall, a new better life,

Life that I shall lead in my way,

Way I shall go, that I once did dream,

Dream that still with me does play.

Play with danger I shall again,

Again in my heart burns the fire,

Fire that always does push me ahead,

Ahead is the life I did once desire.

 

The form of poetry is Loop Poetry.

Also Crossposted at Impromptu..

Seeking Completion

Just close your eyes for a moment and think,"What do you want most in life?". Different people seek out for different things. Some people wish to have a great career, some want loads of money and lots of fame, some want an understanding life partner, some want to find out the purpose of life etc etc... The list goes on.

But why is man involved in so many quests at the same time? Why does he need all of this in life? Lets take a look at what we need in life and why.

Money/Fame:

Some men feel that there is no joy in life till you have all the luxury of the world at your feet or till you are known by one and all. They feel incomplete till they do not experience/achieve all the materialistic things in life. Don't we frequently come across the line,"You should experience everything in life, atleast once"?

Sex:
This is one of the prime needs for most individuals as it comes in the physical category. Sex involves the desire for satisfaction of a strong physical urge. If the urge for sex is continuously suppressed, the desire becomes very strongly prominent and one starts feeling more and more incomplete without gratification of the desire.

Partner/Soul mate/Friends:
Man seeks company of someone who would understand him and care for him. He wants a partner or a soul mate for sharing his deep emotional self, his feelings hitherto known to no one. Man without a partner feels emotionally incomplete and thus seeks emotional completion in form of a soul mate or like-minded friends.

Knowledge:
This category of men are involved in seeking the truth... Trying to find out the purpose of life. Trying to answer the deeper philosophical questions. The world, to them, seems so incomplete without the knowledge of the truth. Questioning all the commonly known beliefs, they involve themselves in unraveling the bigger mysteries of life. The more they know, the more they want to know. Without complete knowledge, they feel incomplete.

Whether seeking one of the above or something else in life, what are we all actually seeking? Why do we want to satisfy the burning passion within us? If you look at any passion that you have in life and ask, "What will I get if I get this?", the answer would be a sense of fulfillment. We seek fulfilment because we feel incomplete. In these various forms, man is seeking completion for his various needs - physical, emotional, social or intellectual. The underlying basis of anything that you want in life is the need for completion. All of us want to be complete!

And for a man who knows that completion is what he is actually seeking, the next question would be "How do I become complete?". There is the famous story of the musk deer who tries to find out the source of a beautiful smell which is present all around it. It goes round and round in circles but cannot find what it is seeking. What it is truly seeking - the source of that smell- is the musk lying within the deer itself.

We seek out various external means for completion. We try to find completion by seeking something that lies outside us. But the truth is that all that we really need in life, all the completion, lies right within us. Looking out for this completion in any of the above forms or through any other external means brings only temporary satisfaction and nothing else.

The only means to be complete is to look within. And you will find the path unfolding on its own in front of your own eyes. Imagine a 3-D person being held up in a 3-D prison with no way to escape. What will happen if the person is given a fourth dimension? Can a 2-D plane of paper hold a 3-D object? Surely no. So, when you get this fourth dimension, you become free from the daily attempt in life to seek completion in various forms. And the fourth dimension and many more lie right within you.

Delve deep into your consciousness. Meditate. Look within. To know you are already complete!

Shreyans
Weekend posting straight from my blog: http://mehtashreyans.blogspot.com/

Michelle!!! My belle!!!

Where the steering wheel is held without fear

and the head is held high,

Where road ahead is free;

Where the engine has not been broken

up into fragments by the mechanics;

Where power come out from the

depth of throttle pedal;

Where tireless striving of the pistons

stretches itself towards

perfection;

Where the clear stream of engine oil and fuel

has not lost its way into the

dreary dusty tarmac of roads;

Where the spirit is led forward

by thee(driver) into ever-widening

adrenaline rush and nirvana.

The creature that takes you to

that heaven of freedom,

my Father,

Sold that car away.......


inspired by Tagore

My Philos

Philos!
Yes he's my best friend.I am nothing without him.I wonder how would I manage a day without him.A real friend who has always stood by me when I replay the smiles,laughter and what not emotions of the day in my memory.There have been times when he couldnt help me but i can never blame him for those incidents.It was me who did nt care for him and hence he was nt in a position to help me.I must have failed many times in caring for him but he has always stood by myself whenever I needed him.I have a very good memory but its nothing when it comes to him.
I can completely trust him.Many a times I have forgotten about others but he never forgets and reminds me about other people.He even stays connecte dto yahoo messenger and informs me whose online and who wants to have a chat with me.He's has been with me through all the moments of glory and failure!
I has looked after me so well.I wonder how can I ever repay him back.

Even when I sleep he keeps awake and in the morning he wakes me up as scheduled.Thank u so much dad that u introduced me to the best friend in my life!
Yes u must have guessed it right!I am talking about my mobilephone.He's my best friend!
I am nothing without him!Cheers mate!

P.S:- originally posted at my blog page-http://misdirecting.blogspot.com/

Misdirected Washing

Mismanaged washing of clothes! Ya, that what I just did.
Tomorrow I am going for an outing and wanted myself in a specific outfit.The guys have decided on a color code.Blue jeans and black Tees and a black sports jacket....I was part of this feminine type of debate over the phone and finally voted for the blue-black combination.After 15-20 mins of debate the verdict was out and it was the blue-black combination that won.

So went to my wardrobe to choose the outfit and was shocked to see that none of the clothes that had come from washing were blue or black in color.It was 3 pm and I thought all would be fine if I use the washing machine.So finally took the clothes(chosen ones) and brought the washing machine to life by connecting its wire to the switch board and dumped all the clothes inside the tube.Connected the pipe with the tap and programmed it for a quick-wool-wash.Then I added the detergent.Turned the tap on and a few seconds later later the machine demonstrated its waterfall effect of adding water inside the tub.

Everything was fine but after a few minutes the water effect ended without any warning.The tub showed no intentions of rotation.Only the lights blinked,I went for and inspection and it didnt take me long to find out that there was no water supply.Gr8! I was already pissed off due to the fuel shortage and long queues outside Petrol Station and now water too....

The clothes were wet with detergent water so the idea about wearing clothes that werent washed is also out of question.I am still waiting for the water supply to come back!I wish it comes soon.

And thats the story behind mismanaged washing!!!


P.S:- originally posted at my blog page-http://misdirecting.blogspot.com/

Mood and the Energy Law!

I have come to the conclusion that bad mood can neither be created nor destroyed.It can only be transferred from one person to another.There are so many examples to support this view.I dont know whether this law can be applied on everyone's life but I am pretty sure about the one's around me.

Well once I was in a very bad mood.Few of my cousins conspired against me and made a mess of my day.Everyone around me treated me as if am some kind of a boogie man.It was damn frustrating...tried to watch the TV but there was no privacy.Everyone was just swarming around me.It was getting worse and luckily I received a phone call from my friend Shreya.Now she guessed correctly that somethings wrong with me and suggested that its better that I move out from the epicentre of problem.I agreed and we decided to watch a movie.But bad mood law was still not supporting me.every one around me had somekind of a force shield that protected them from dangerous bad mood energy.But kept radiating it on me and extracting my positive or good mood energy.There was no vehicle at home.Someone took it for their joy rides.I called my friend and told her to bring her barbie doll vehicle.She drove,I sat behind and we reached the multiplex on time.She went to park the vehicle and went to buy the tickets.

Turning point of the day:I met another friend mine near the counter.Priyanka was with her friend(boyfriend) .I learnt that they are going to watch the same movie.So we brought 4 tickets and I waited for Shreya to come back and the couple left inside.She came back from the parking lot a little late and we entered inside and I told her about the company that we had.And that was the moment.The moment of energy changes!

The other boy was head over heels in love(claimed) with Shreya just a few months before.But things did work out so it died off.Now she was surprised to see him with Priyanka.It was obvious that Priyanka didnt know anything about this.Well Shreya didnt react much but the boy's face was pale.Nothing much happend and we went inside after a little hello and took our seats.Now as the movie started I felt a Strange feeling inside me as if something is flowing out of me.

The movie wasnt that interesting but things around me was really getting spicy.Noone was interested in the movie and Shreya didnt allow me take interest elsewhere.The intermission proved to be a diaster for the boy who came to enjoy and have a happy time with his new found love.My destiny or fate had something else for him.Shreya told Priyanka everything abt him.The boy couldnt hide his face.I tried my best to pacify the situation.But angry gals are a difficult subjest to handle.Few moments later Priyanka left the multiplex the both followed her like the vodafone Pug.We stayed inside but I knew that I am not gonna listen to the movie's dialogues but shreya's monologue about the incident.

Surprising I was feeling better but everyone around me was in a very bad mood.Did I do something wrong??Nopes! Sitting together was Priyanka's idea,Movie was Shreya's idea. I thought there was no reason to feel guilty about what had happened.The movie finally ended an she(fuming mood) dropped me home.I was fine at home to.I was still smiling even thoughi was hearing the same things That I heard in the afternoon.

So i think this proves the mood and energy law.....
lolz what a day!!!what a day!!


P.S:- originally posted at my blog page-http://misdirecting.blogspot.com/