random thots..

..I left him crying..

..I know it was rude..

..but that was only the best thing..

..I could do..right then..

random..

kaash aisa ho ki waqt tham jaye
aur in bahon main hi zindagi beet jai

kaash aisa ho ki mujhe kehna bhi na pade
aur tum sab chordh ke ruk jao bas mere liye

Death..(Contd.)

As death left,souls united forever..

Death..(Contd.)

beautiful was death
within your arms

..I am no more myself again..

..I am no more myself again..

you came scribbling your unsaid words
blooming every corner of my heart
left me within, your blissful paradise
hooked me into your tingling ripple
over-ruling my mind,body and soul
mesmerizing my thoughts,dazzling my eyes

..I am no more myself again..

past is forgotten,future worries no more
Strings of worldly ties lie broken apart
like a shadow of hope you walk beside me
breathing your fragrance,cuddling your soul
mirror reflect no more,fear scares no more
just remains your love your warmth your care

..I am no more myself again..

day begins,night ends,moon peeps,stars shine
everything fades behind your charming glory
snuggling within you my pain surrenders
seeping within my soul you steal me forever
with your endless love within, my heart just wishes
to sleep forever in cradle of your arms

..I am no more myself again..

Phir kyo apne pankhon ki udaan nahi udta main..

Har anjaan sa chera meri pehchan sa lagta hai,
Bheed main ghum na ho jaun is baat se darta hoon,
Duniya ki ajeeb si rasmo se pareshan sa rehta hoon,
Har girte kadmo ko thamne ka hosla rakhta hoon,
Sitaron ki chamak main chamkna chahta hoon,
Waise to andehra bhi hat jata hai raston se mere..

Phir kyo apne pankhon ki udaan nahi udta main,
Phir kyo khulein aakash main azaad nahi udta main,

Kabhi haar kar lehron main dubne sa lagta hoon,
Kabhi kinaron par baitha sukoon ki saans leta hoon,
Kisi ke sapno ko haqeekat banane ka sapna dekhta hoon,
Kadam ladkhda jatein hai to roshini ka haath thaam leta hoon,
Jo mord jis aor le jata hai usi aor murd jata hoon,
Waise to har Khawaish muthi main band hai mere..

Phir kyo apne pankhon ki udaan nahi udta main,
Phir kyo khulein aakash main azaad nahi udta main.

..broken wings..

..I sat on the window with the broken wings..

..with pieces of shattered dreams in hands..

..my tears drenched my soul..

.. and my failure broke me whole..

..like a looser I sat on the window with the broken wings..

..I saw the sun smiling..

..I saw the birds creeping..

..I saw the flowers blooming,I saw the people roaming..

..no one looked at me with the broken wings in my hands..

..I looked at seventh sky from where I fall..

..so high above I reached and fall..

..I am all broke will I reach there again..

..A drop fall from my eye on my hand..

..smiled at me,"You already know how to reach there again"

..I opened my broken wings to give a last try..

..it pained a lot and it hurt a lot..

..wings opened in the vast sky..

..inhaled the air of hope..flapped higher..

..and I was flying again I was smiling again..

..I always knew how to reach there..

..then why I feared just because I fall..

..then why I felt I couldn't fly again..

..I turned back to look at the window..

..where now laid broken pieces of my fear...

..now I am no more scared of my broken wings..

..I can fly high with my hope with my faith..

..I can fly high even with my broken wings..

..even with my broken wings..

Twisted Care II

continued from FL post

He turned white in a while.She touched his bleeding heart and laid her head on his frozen chest.Tears spilled out of her eyes and her colds lips whispered,'I loved you,Dad'.
Eyes still staring at the dagger,she took out the phone and dialed,'Cop,I killed my dad'.

I am renting my heart again.....

I am renting my heart again
somebody reside without complain

scars of past are carved beneath
pangs of grief is under wreath
smile has withered away in the corner
life is still sad like a mourner

I am renting my heart again
somebody reside without complain

darkness is awake inside my room
future seems like a bloody doom
hope is dead within these rifts
deep inside me fury drifts

I am renting my heart again
somebody reside without complain

wake me up from this endless sleep
hold me back from this great steep
accept me as I am torn and broke
mend my wounds with caressing stroke

I am renting my heart again
somebody reside without complain

seal me inside your soul forever
shield me so that I am not hurt ever
knock on my heart as breeze of dove
just pay rent of unconditional love

I am renting my heart again
somebody reside without complain

..broken wings..

..I sat on the window with the broken wings..

..with pieces of shattered dreams in hands..

..my tears drenched my soul..

.. and my failure broke me whole..

..like a looser I sat on the window with the broken wings..

..I saw the sun smiling..

..I saw the birds creeping..

..I saw the flowers blooming,I saw the people roaming..

..no one looked at me with the broken wings in my hands..

..I looked at seventh sky from where I fall..

..so high above I reached and fall..

..I am all broke will I reach there again..

..A drop fall from my eye on my hand..

..smiled at me,"You already know how to reach there again"

..I opened my broken wings to give a last try..

..it pained a lot and it hurt a lot..

..wings opened in the vast sky..

..inhaled the air of hope..flapped higher..

..and I was flying again I was smiling again..

..I always knew how to reach there..

..then why I feared just because I fall..

..then why I felt I couldn't fly again..

..I turned back to look at the window..

..where now laid broken pieces of my fear...

..now I am no more scared of my broken wings..

..I can fly high with my hope with my faith..

..I can fly high even with my broken wings..

..even with my broken wings..

Phir yaadon ka karwa chal diya hai

Phir yaadon ka karwa chal diya hai..

Door tak bas akela hi chal diya hai..

Tapti doop ki garmi liye..

Kapkapati sardi ki narmi liye..

Barasti aankhon ki boondon sang..

Khilkhilati hasi ke phoolon sang..

Tanhai ko bhool kar..

Waqt ke sang jhool kar..

Phir yaadon ka karwa chal diya hai..
Door tak bas akela hi chal diya hai..

..Yaad rakhna.

Yaad rakhna ek raat aisi bhi ayegi
Jab karwatein badlte badlte subh ho jayegi

Yaad rakhna ek mord aise bhi ayega
Jab thak haar kar kadam ruk jayenge

Yaad rakhna ek aansoo aisa bhi girega
Jo bhikhar kar bhi tuth nahi payega

Yaad rakhna ek pal aisa bhi ayega
Jab dhadkane bechain ho jayegi

Yaad rakhna ek shaks aisa bhi milega
Jo apna ho kar bhi anjaan lagega

Yaad rakhna ek hasi aise bhi ayegi
Jo bas tum par hi muskurayegi

Yaad rakhna ek kal aisa bhi ayega
Jo bas meri hi khani dhorayega

Yaad rakhna waqt bhi ruk jayega
Jab mera dard teri aankhon ko rulaega

No matter how far I m..

As fire turned him to ashes,she decided to end her colorless life.As she step ahead,someone kicked inside her womb.Tear sprinkled as she caressed her womb and smile waved as his words echoed in her ears,"No matter how far I am,part of me will always be with you"

Is it Love

Is it Love
When tears rollout
with a smile

Is it Love
When life swing
on a glance

Is it Love
When heart sinks
at the parting

Is it Love
When pain fears
no more

Is it Love
When mirror smile
every hour

Is it Love
When time run
so fast

Is it Love
When words struck
inside throat

Is it Love
When feet jump
above limits

Is it Love
When whole world
is beautiful

Is it Love
When you exclaim
"Is It Love!!!"

...m back..

Though I am sitting close to you

yet every second you are dying inside me

Time is digging miles between us

doubts is ruining life between us

trust is hinding in corners of house

love is suffocating inside our hearts

Though I am sitting so close to you

yet every second you are dying inside me

hold me close with last hope you have

look into my eyes with last breath of love

assure me once that everthing will be fine

this time will soon end with all those pangs

and I promise with all my possible efforts

I will never let you die inside my heart

..diwali..

door tak kahin koi nazar nahi aata
andhera hi dheere dheere simattha rahta hai
roshani ka ek bhi katra nahi milta mujhe
saari duniya apne ghar main diwali manati hai roj
aur ek diya bhi meri chaukhat par nahi jalta
viraana sa khandhar hai yeh ghar
aisa duniya kheti hai
mujhse pucho kya hai yeh ghar
duniya kya jaan payegi yeh khabar
uski yadoon ki roshni se jagmagata hai yeh ghar
uski khusboo se mehkta hai yeh suna aagan
uske ehsaas ke vishvaas par khadi hai tutti deewarein
uski dastak ki umeed main khoya hai yeh budha darwaza
hazaro diye bhi na roshan kar sakege mere ghar ko
kyunki uske intezaar main jal rahi hai yeh chaukhat
diwali duniya kya banayegi apna gharon main
diwali to main bana rahi hu uski yaad main
bas kami hai to patakhon ke shor ki yahan
woh aa gaye to meri kilkariya is kami ko bhi pura kar degi..

P.s. I m going out for a week won't be there to wish you all.May the Divine Light of Diwali Spread into your Life Peace, Prosperity, Happiness and Good Health.Have safe and happy Diwali.

..how com..

lips touched and
hearts melted within the warm hug
dreams heaped their eyes
time halted there right
air stood silent
stars hide inside the dark curtains
clouds encircled their emotions
dropped tears from their eyes
moon blinked,trees whispered
all gathered on that lonely street
eagerly watched as their soul united
rain came happily down pouring them
thunder and lightning danced in complete bliss
their eyes opened as the warmth raised heights
realizing what they did in haste
they moved apart with eyes wide
their lips stammered
how com , they came so close
breaking all barriers of world
ashamed and guilt lingered their heart
speechless hiding their face
they turned back slowly
moved away as if they did some crime
leaving behind the trace of moment
that prevailed love within their hearts
just for a while..

..bachpan mera..

bachpan mera rooth gaya hai
beetein waqt main chutt gaya hai
baarish ka paani to aaj bhi hai
par kagaz ki kashti nahi
door tak faila akaash aaj bhi hai
par udane ko pank hi nahi
bachpan mera rooth gaya
beetein waqt main chutt gaya

..As I stood by his side..

Holding my breath so long
As I stood by his side
Separation walked out of the door,
Miles narrowed to a step.
Tears hide in the corners,
Smile flaunted in the centre.
Heart skipped so fast,
Time freeze to stop.
Hands shivered to walk,
Eyes muttered to talk.
Words started to fall,
Life danced to roll..!!!

Who I am..??

You wanna know who I am
I am what I see in your eyes
when I look at you
I am the one your heart cares most
I am in the ticks of your wall clock
I am in tears of your joys
I am in the reflection of your mirror
I am your first ray of hope
I am your shoulder to cry on
I am close to you in your dark wintery nights
I am in the every beat of your heart
I am the one who's awake in your dreams
I am in the castle you live
I am your smile,I am your tear
I am in creases of your morning bedsheets
I am your fragrance,I am your anger
I am your past ,I am your future
I am on train you travel every day
I am in the drops of rain that touches your soul
I am everywhere,I am everything
I am your shadow,I am your fear
I am your day,I am your night
why you wonder who I am
when you know who I am
Everyday you ask me this
and everyday I repeat you same these lines
Doctors say you have lost your memory
and I say have you lost your senses
you don't remember me anymore
look straight into my eyes
hold me in your arms as always you do
feel me touch me
this is who I am
I have no identity without you
my life is not worth living
when you are not a part of it
every morning I knock at your door
just in the hope that one day
you will remember me
but it's hell when you give those strange looks
my life has just become
a walk from my home to your home
this never ending journey is what all my fate
with all my broken heart I pray you oh god
either take my memory too so that
I may not go through this pain all day
or bury me under that ground forever
so that my soul may rest with her fathomless love
that may not die even till eternity