As I mature I've learned that no matter how much I care,
some people are just assholes.

I've learned that if one day your best friend
or your siblings turn against you its not a
big deal.

I've learned that you cannot make
someone love you. All you can do is
stalk them and hope they panic and give in.

I've learned that it takes years
to build up trust, and it only takes
suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.

I've learned that you shouldn't
compare yourself to others - they are
more screwed up than you think.

I've learned that you can keep vomiting
long after you think you're finished.

I've learned that we are responsible
for what we do, unless we are celebrities.

I've learned that regardless of
how hot and steamy a relationship is at
first, the passion fades, and there had better
be a lot of money to take its place!

I've learned that the people you care most
about in life are taken from you too soon
and all the less important ones just never go away. 

an ultimate

 time is not speeding anymore,

the deadly days and  noxious nights 

cant stir up my calm nomore.

my senses are sealed ,
yet the  truth is revealed,

i lay down worthless for eternity,

no vigor i see in limbs

the virtue still i have, 
i breathe immortality.

i m up i m awake

i peep through the bright,

set to cease craving thy bliss

to reach for the timeless infinite

nerves stop pumping,

the red string is broken,

the bones turning to dust

my cosmic play is done.

i met Him when i died

Just want to share an experience,,dunno how u guys will react,,dunno if u ll believe or not.. here i go..

I used to be an atheist, a big full time.Never believed in the word 'GOD'. Always ready to debate in the first place, always ready to prove there s nothing like any supernatural powers.Used to make fun of people when they say * 'God is one'. --But there are like uncountable Godesses, God s a player eh?
*God is everywhere - Then how can It be 'one'..anyways then it might be there in aloo(potato), then you boil God ,mash god, mix it with some other Gods (flour, salt, pepper ,oil etc..) , and eat the samosa (indirecctly god)--  Yummy God!! ahha!! 
Let it be..my list went on.. ( feel sorry for the above statements)
Just to let you people know.. I have asthma..I have had very acute asthma attacks since i dont bother to remember.The sudden frequent attacks would occur anytime anywhere, in school, school bus , home,while sleeping ,while eating.. no timing..It used to be bad though..(m much much better now). As it is said 'everything happens for reason' so proved my story..
It was around 1 am when i woke up coughing..in seconds i was running out of breath..my inhaler never works on me.. in minutes i was in hospital ..oxygen, injections,nebulizers.. no effect..more injections, more nebs more medicines..nothing worked..I couldnt lie down ,trying to hold on to single breath ..Hanging between life and death wished someone kill me or save me..struggling with air for more than an hour .. on spur of moment i was calm ..i was still, in peace like i never had experienced,,
I actually saw that white light..bright so intense yet soothing..I knew what it was.My whole life flashed before my eyes ..from  just before my birth till then..it was just perfect..
doctors said my pulse went into rest for some moments.. did i actually die?? i dunno what pulled me back..m here now.. The intersting thing is i could actually hear my mom reciting some prayers in her mind sitting outside the ICU.
Yess i believe in God..i felt him..i touched Him..i was in Him..HE IS IN ME..
p.s. i kno the reaction tat would come but plz try to control 'WTf!!' :S

WTF!! but lol :P

Me a part of Thee

i am a laughter out of cry

i am a truth out of lie

i am joy , i am spark

from the sorrow from the dark,
i am sublime, i am immense,
m supreme, infinite
m forever m the light.

i am clear i am pure,

out of rust and out of stain.

from those dead cold ashes i am life again

why men are never depressed

Men Are Just Happier People-- What do you expect from such simple creatures? Your last name stays put. The garage is all yours. Wedding plans take care of themselves. Chocolate is just another snack. You can be President. You can never be pregnant. You can wear a white T-shirt to a water park. You can wear NO shirt to a water park. Car mechanics tell you the truth. The world is your urinal. You never have to drive to another gas station restroom because this one is just too icky. You don't have to stop and think of which way to turn a nut on a bolt. Same work, more pay. People never stare at your chest when you're talking to them. New shoes don't cut, blister, or mangle your feet. One mood all the time.
Phone conversations are over in 30 seconds flat. You know stuff about tanks. A five-day vacation requires only one suitcase.. You can open all your own jars. You get extra credit for the slightest act of thoughtfulness. If someone forgets to invite you, he or she can still be your friend.
Your underwear is $8.95 for a three-pack. Three pairs of shoes are more than enough. You almost never have strap problems in public. You are unable to see wrinkles in your clothes. Everything on your face stays its original color. The same hairstyle lasts for years, maybe decades. You only have to shave your face and neck.
You can play with toys all your life. One wallet and one pair of shoes -- one color for all seasons. You can wear shorts no matter how your legs look. You can 'do' your nails with a pocket knife. You have freedom of choice concerning growing a mustache.
No wonder men are happier!

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WANNA BACK OFF

wrote it months ago but posting it now....cz its all same perhaps :

It was the night so cold,
my soul was frozen ,
i couldnt feel it inside,
inside me never.
Now the days r so hot,n the sun is being cruel
the tears turn to dust, n my eyes are drying forever
not ready to leap ,and m afraid to stay
trying to move on but m left behind
its now all mess here strain there stress
cant find my place in life..........
they jus pass by,one after one,
racing n rushing.cant they hold,
cant they stop,cant they see me on the edge?
wanna vanish into ash,wanto merge with the sky,
nomore i can bear,the pain, the loneliness.
mine mine all mine,all all all mine..
the darkness i hav possessed,is hiding me from me..
broken n shattered,i am still runnin around,
i run for the hope n i run for the truth
i run the life,m runnin for myself.
loafing for the change,without any cry,
gatherin all the pains with loadsa regrets,
i will soon disappear,
silent n alone,
for no one can hear my silent plea..

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