June 27, 2011

I am sorry, I lied to you !


Sorry I lied ,
Lied a million times to you.
Hiding the pain and just ,
Smiling in-front of you !

You asked me,
"What's wrong?",
I wanted to scream,
"Everything",
But I lied,
"All's good".

You asked me,
"Did anything happened today?"
I lied,
"No nothing"
"Everything is fine"

You asked me,
"Are you crying?"
I lied,
"No, why would I cry"
"I am happy"

You asked me,
"How was your day?"
I wanted to tell you
All the shit that had happened that day,
But I lied,
"My day was just usual,
like everyday "

You asked me,
"What did you do the whole day?"
I wanted to cry,
Like I had been crying
That whole day,
But I lied,
"I did some home stuff and studies"

I know you knew something was wrong,
I know you knew that I was in pain,
I know you knew that I was lying,
I know you might be hurt after reading this,
But I had to lie.

Lie beacause
You were entering a new phase of your life,
Phase for which you had toiled so much.
I just had no right to snatch that happiness from you,
To deprive you of the smiles you deserved.
I didn't want to loathe you with my depression,
I just couldn't be so selfish.
Hence,
I lied.

I know you would have been there
when I  cried,
When I was depressed.
But I didn't want to
sadden you by my sorrow tales.
I wanted you to be happy,
And believe
That I was happy too.
Because
Seeing you happy,
Somewhere made me happy too !


Hence
I am confessing it today,
Right here,
In-front of you.
That
I am Sorry,
Sorry,
That I lied to you !





[ She was going through a bad time, but never did she let her friend know that, with whom she used to chat daily via text messages,  as he was shifting from her city to a metro city for his first job. ]  
Smita
http://smitasdesk.blogspot.com/

9 comments:

  1. Very nice and touching poetry...Its one thing to lie and another to own up the lie...the latter is what requires REAL courage; sometimes WAY more than just telling the truth...

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  2. Very nice and touching poetry...Its one thing to lie and another to own up the lie...the latter is what requires REAL courage; sometimes WAY more than just telling the truth...

    Scribblers Inc.

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  3. @scribblers : One who doesn't accepts the lies told, is simply a fool in one's own eyes!
    thanks for the compliment :)

    @V!Vs : :)

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  4. its touching and expressive...it happens :)

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  5. @ The Solitary Writer : Thanks :)

    @Suvidha A. : Thanks for commenting :)

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  6. Yea, it's sad that we do lie to the people we love so much. And yet we know so well that lies hurt more than truths. :(

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  7. @Nic. : yeah :( But then, lie was the only truth in that situation, so I had to pick up that only :)

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