I am sorry, I lied to you !

Sorry I lied ,

Lied a million times to you.

Hiding the pain and just ,

Smiling in-front of you !

You asked me,

"What's wrong?",

I wanted to scream,

"Everything",

But I lied,

"All's good".

You asked me,

"Did anything happened today?"

I lied,

"No nothing"

"Everything is fine"

You asked me,

"Are you crying?"

I lied,

"No, why would I cry"

"I am happy"

You asked me,

"How was your day?"

I wanted to tell you

All the shit that had happened that day,

But I lied,

"My day was just usual,

like everyday "

You asked me,

"What did you do the whole day?"

I wanted to cry,

Like I had been crying

That whole day,

But I lied,

"I did some home stuff and studies"

I know you knew something was wrong,

I know you knew that I was in pain,

I know you knew that I was lying,

I know you might be hurt after reading this,

But I had to lie.

Lie beacause

You were entering a new phase of your life,

Phase for which you had toiled so much.

I just had no right to snatch that happiness from you,

To deprive you of the smiles you deserved.

I didn't want to loathe you with my depression,

I just couldn't be so selfish.

Hence,

I lied.

I know you would have been there

when I  cried,

When I was depressed.

But I didn't want to

sadden you by my sorrow tales.

I wanted you to be happy,

And believe

That I was happy too.

Because

Seeing you happy,

Somewhere made me happy too !

Hence

I am confessing it today,

Right here,

In-front of you.

That

I am Sorry,

Sorry,

That I lied to you !

[ She was going through a bad time, but never did she let her friend know that, with whom she used to chat daily via text messages,  as he was shifting from her city to a metro city for his first job. ]  
Smita
http://smitasdesk.blogspot.com/