January 14, 2012

I - Part 2

Seeing my face as a human was a shock to me. A face that I coudn't identify myself with.
And I was in too much pain to justify it.
Then I heard a some sound and I turned. A figure suddenly jumped inside behind my back. It didn't startle me much because I was expecting it.
"Gotcha!". It was that guy. He said he wanted to test me so that's why he pretended to be in trouble. I was just blank.

"Come on lets get moving", he said and proceeded down the corridor.
I followed him as if a dog obeying its master.

We kept walking. He kept talking but nothing entered my head because I was amused like a child who sees the merry-go-round for the first time.
The walls were decorated with the carvings of a man who just appeared from nowhere and how he realized his purpose and eventually became something which I could not understand.
And what made it spooky was the images that depicted the progress of that man. It depicted hell and heaven combined.
We turned off to a corner and entered a room which was eventually the room where I saw that lady.

"here we are" said the guy to that lady and they both winked.
I was now led to the auditorium and offered a seat in the middle.
"just relax. We have everything under control" said the lady who followed behind me.
This was the point where I realized I had not spoken anything.
"who are you and what is your name?" I asked. It was as though I spoke for the first time in my entire life. "and who am I?"
"you will soon know who you are and who we are does not really matter" a new voice from behind me said this. I then turned around and saw no one. And everyone started staring at me. "who is this?" I asked again.
"it does not matter" the voice echoed throughout the hall.

Before I could realize what's happening, I fell to the seat half dizzy.

Am tired......!

Yes,
Am tired. 
Dead tired.
Tired of holding up this burden 
And living up-to the expectations of all.
Am tired of being older than my age
And 
Bear all these responsibilities.

Am not complaining,
Am not crying,
Am not cribbing
And certainly am not regretting,
But am tired,
As                                                    
I am not that strong
As I look, say or fake to be.
I am weak.
I am not that much full of faith
To keep pacifying my heart 
That things will settle.

I am losing my patience,
Am losing my strength,
Am losing my peace,
Am losing it all.

I am escaping my own self
Am hiding from being what I am.
I am drenched of love,
Am deprived of care,
As I have spent all that I had
On people I cared.


Will I meet somebody
Who will support me one day?
Who will care for me?
Will I be loved by anyone someday?
Questions are many
Answers are none.
Expectations are dead
And only struggle is left!

Smita

January 8, 2012

New Year Wishes from Stephen!!

Dear All,

Wishing you all a very happy and a prosperous new year.May this new year enlighten your life and bring you goodies in form of health,wealth and Mirth.May this joy filled new year bring back TWL to its old glorious days of 2008 and 09.Signing out with a positive note that TWL will be back with a bang this year.

Love,
Stephen
www.thesolitarywriter.com
we read.we write.we lounge

January 7, 2012

Flying.........!!

"What happened?",she asked.
"Nothing. I just got up and the skin just got rubbed so it's paining",he answered, rubbing the back of his leg down the knees.
"Ohhh...How can that thing pain you? You don't even know how to get up",she teased.
They both had been sitting on a raised gravel platform when he decided to get down first and stand in-front of her facing her. 
 
 

She was still giggling! 
And he made a face and gifted a swift slap on her face!
"You get down then, then you too will feel the same pain!", he said, kinda irritated with her laughter.
"Why would I experience the same thing?",she resisted,"I know how to get down, I am not a child like you", and she giggled again.
This irritated him more. 

He came to her left side and sat besides her on the platform.
She was still in teasing mood! And he was still irritated!
She said something , he replied with something!
She teased, he got irritated.
And hence came the time for revenge.
He tangled his shoe with her slippers to make it escape her foot but un-fortunately he couldn't!
"What! I knew this intention of yours hence I had made a firm grip on my chappal", she said, thinking she had won but poor girl didn't know he was not such an easy guy to accept defeat!
"What? What are you looking at?"she said in a humble voice when she noticed him looking at her from sideways, breaking the silence of few seconds that had lingered between them.
And this was enough to distract her and the devil got the chance to play his best shot! There went her chappal, a few metres away from her foot, the flying chappal!
He had finally been successful in sliding away her slippers from her feet.
Immediately her ran to collect it and just hold it high in the air, taking advantage of him being taller than her!
 

January 1, 2012

Please, come back!

If only you can see me this way,
I believe you will come back
If only you could feel the pain, I feel
I am sure you will come back…

If only I could tear my heart apart and show
If only I could have said that simple, ‘No’
If only I could make you smile, for once,
… I know, you would come back!



Happy New Year, my friends here in WL. This is just a call to all those who used to be here and now, life has swung them apart. Wish this new year would see us all back here, in our own place, where we belong to. Please, come back!