Moonlit confession

In this moonlit night
I have one long confession
lingering my heart from a long time
It's time to free it and let it to your heart
before this poised moon hide behind hazy clouds
I have something deep within to tell you aloud
beneath this beautiful face you see everyday
is a devil rising high everyday
strangling me from telling you truth
from day I say you on that busy train
I had spent many sleepless nights
I still wonder how one fine day
destiny fall on my ground
and took me to your world
your charming smile steal my heart
we sail so long on the ship called friendship
holding tears when nights were dark
shedding each other under sunny days
you penetrated deep inside my soul
knocked down my hidden window
stole my darkest fear
molded me into what I am today
how hours turn to days and days to years
I never realized until that day
when I saw you with someone, so close
my heart ripped out of my chest
tears spilled out of my eyes
I felt sudden pain that choked me so long
right from that day I realized
how will I feel if I loose you someday
my world was upside down
I turned back to look at past
not a second passed without your thought
I kept moving thinking you were all mine
but I broke down when reality hit me hard
these scars still bleed many time
then took some transformation
and my feelings changed for you that night
I cheat you on your scared ship
I crossed my barriers of being your friend
new dream built around in my eyes
where you were there for me every time
dreaming about you when I woke up
I found love standing at my door
hiding it I moved so far with you
but now it seemed I am failing
to hide it any more
so under this vast dark sky
I am standing here to confess
that till this waves rise and fall
till this moon shine in that sky
I will love you...I will love you..
I know you may not love me back
but I can't stop loving you now
and its getting deeper day by day
It's not your fault that I landed up here
but It also true I can't hold it anymore
I can never be same friend of yours
I can never love you the way you want
now its upto to your whether you want me
or throw me out of your life:(

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The Incomplete Love Saga!

** Posted on behalf of Rashi!

She sat alone today where they sat together. This was their place where they shared all their secrets. They had met here. They had met when both of them had loved and lost. They supported each other in ways that no1 could understand. They laughed together and comforted when the other one cried. Together, they shared a bond that they themselves couldn't understand.

One day, she was on her way to meet him and she realized her broken heart hurt no more. She wasn't numb as before and she could feel. More importantly, she once again felt love. Friendship that had slowly evolved into love without her ever knowing it. The realization had to be shared. She had to tell that he had broken her shell, broken her resolve of never loving, of never giving her heart away, of becoming vulnerable once again. She reached their place. She saw him standing there, radiant as ever. There was something in the way the moonlight bounced off his face. Was it a smile that she saw on his face? Or was it her happiness that she could see on his face? She went up to him and hugged him and surprisingly, he hugged her back tightly too. Does he feel the same too? Hope and confusion in her heart.

He looked at her and said, " I need to tell you something." She smiled. He continued, " I have decided enough is enough. I know I cant get those years of my life back again. I need to move on. I have decided to take my life back. I know I can never love again but atleast I can live again."

She looked on, unsure of whether to be happy or to be sad. Never love again? Unknowingly, tears welled in her eyes. He took her face in his hands and pacified her. She decided it is best she not tell him of how she felt. He didn't need that now. Maybe one day, maybe some day.

Today, she sits here alone. Knowing not whether to be happy that he is living or sad that he isn't loving her.

PS: I know I have been away. But, I read this contest and just had to post. I have always been a part of everything that happens on the Lounge and I just couldn't not post. This isn't for the contest. This is just for all to know that I am here reading you always. Silently but surely. I feel exactly like story away from Lounge but I need that break and I hope when I come back, I will find the same Lounge that I love so much!

A special shout out to Kajal, Happy Belated Birth day girl! I did remember. How could I not remember a fellow Virgo's birth day?

Reflections

What do you think of when you are on your own on a moonlit night?

Stories from childhood,

Forgotten and lost dreams,

Or of the grimness of the night?

What do you see when you see the pale moon?

The face of a love lost,

A teardrop in the pillow of night,

Or the light unhidden by the scars?

What does the tide tell you?

About rising expectations,

Simmering dreams,

Or about the ebb that might follow?

Why are you alone gazing at the moon?

To sigh at the beauty,

To weave new dreams,

Or to reflect on all that has gone and will come?

Word count - 106

P.S. Cannot call it proper poetry, nor is it prose, just thinking aloud I guess :-)