I wish...I wonder...WHY I

I wish... I wish to have a choice in my life,
which rectifies .. which clarifies...

I wish to fly in the sky,
with no thread pulling back my kite...

I wish to roam free, free from world's cry...
I wish this world to be free ....and so my life....

I wish to feel to do what I want, the way I want;
I want my choice to be by my side.life....

oh! life.... bouquet of compromise...
I want to be free, free, free of its premise...

They don't let me play...or let me stay ..
they say if I would..... guns would eat me live...

I can't sing .. nor can ring.. my house's chime..
mom says, they will figure out.. our hide....

I wonder why we hide.. isn't Kashmir our home... our pride???
Sure dear..she smiled and said.. but no longer it is called paradise....

Freedom is what is no longer ours..
we live in fear of guns and wars..

I wonder.. I wonder why she said freedom's fall ???
she says I wouldn't know...it wasn't there when I was born...

She wished... She wished to take me to her time...
where every neighbour held ...their neighbour in pride..

I wonder what pride she's talking about...!!!
I only know of neighbours having political fight...

We don't let them know we are home..
or else they will shoot us like they did to "pandit kishor"..

I wish .. I wish.. there was no religion so to call.
.all this mess would have never occurred at all...

who so ever dies on either sides...
has at least one person.... who loved him all his life...

As I sing this song of my heart and cry...
I wonder, I am wishing.. but...I wonder why????

Nothing seems to be happening.. except the bloody land war..
We all have forgotten how to love without " clause" ...

I wish .. I wish .. I could make a choice..
I wonder if that could rectify ..

trail of thoughts started fading away..
as a tear drop in my eye made sleep come my way....

I drowned in sleep with teary eyes...
still thinking.. wishing .. wondering... WHY I ?