She didn’t know what to do. I was the only one she could share it with.
“I don’t know what to do. I’m just gonna go to God.”
“Obviously you’re gonna go to God. We already have.”
“I mean literally.”
“Shut up! Don’t say things like that.”
“I want to leave everything and come there, to you.”
“I wish you could. But we have to wait, remember? God wants us to wait.”
“He hates me.”
As she said that, there was a sound of thunder and I saw rain drops on the window pane.
“You know that’s not true. Remember everything, how we met, how we got through all the crap before this. Who do you think was helping us out?”
“Then where is He now? Why isn’t He stopping him?”
The sound of thunder echoed through the sky. Everything lost its color and tears fell from the sky. God was crying.
She got up and went out of view of the webcam.
“Sorry. I went to wash my face.”
“You’re crying? I’ll forever be sorry if this doesn’t turn out right. I hate myself for not being able to do anything.”
I didn’t want to cry. I wanted to show her that I was strong; a man. But seeing her in pain, I couldn’t control myself and a tear fell on my cheek and then another and in moments, I was drowning in them.
"Adi! Don’t cry! Please! You’re my strength! What will I do if you break down?"
“What else can I do? I feel so helpless that I can do nothing sitting here. You have to go through this all alone!”
Every word I typed was screaming in pain.
“This is exactly what he wants. You want him to win over us?”
I typed the weakest ‘No’ ever.
“Then stop. See I have stopped. I looooooooooooooove you!”
“Me too, but for what? There is not a single thing I can do for you.”
“All I need is for you to love me. But by crying like this, we are proving ourselves to be powerless. Are we?”
“No! God is with us!"
And then there was a great calm. I glanced outside. The rain had stopped; the sound of thunder was replaced by a peaceful silence. The clouds had parted and the colors had returned. I looked back at the screen. She was smiling.