April 16, 2009

A Solitary Voyage


A despondent glance I cast,
Across the vast waters ahead,
As I stand at the wheel atop this bridge,
The ship swaying with the undulations,
Of the waters beneath,
A placid silence, numbness,
Shrouds everything, the sea, the wind, Me,
The sails stagnant, unmoving,
The air heavy with the scent of fear,
Of the unknown, 
As if heralding an ominous storm ahead,
Look around, I do, for someone whose not there,
I know, still, hoping against hope,
That someone will stand beside me,
As I sail into this foreboding mist,
The ship's devoid of life, except me,
Just like my soul, which has stopped playing host,
My heart which has long since shut down,
Beats only for the sake of it,
And then as if to prove the prophecy true,
To corroborate my fears,
The dark clouds roll in, surprisingly agile,
The foremost streak of lightning,
Tears the heaven to shreds,
Resounding across the wetness, the first clap of deafening thunder,
Echoing across the void, unbearable, yet so much there,
Sheets of rain lash my vessel,
As I strain at the wheel, to point her bow,
Into the huge swells now toying with me,
Every ascent to the crest, followed by,
A hollow unending fall into a trough, 
As if into an abyss,
And then all over again,
Tired, wet, exhausted, I am,
Of this unending routine,
Every wave that strikes broadside,
Makes the ship shudder,
Like my spirit, breaking it, bit by bit,
Part by part, as if exacting utmost pain,
Every leak that springs from this pounding,
Drains away, my hope, my will to live,
As the ship yaws and pitches, an awkward dance,
At nature's whim; I stand witness, alone,
Whipped by the wind, drenched by the salt spray,
Hanging on, a grim figure blurred against,
This panaroma of destruction,
I let out an inhuman shriek,
Mocking the ones up in heaven to give it their all,
Making a vow to them, to myself,
To keep going through this, every single day,
Until I find that mystical shore, my destination,
That I am sure is just an illusion,
Or unless I die, broken down, into pieces,
along with my ship, perish, drowning,
Into these noxious depths,
Till then I go on,
Continue my lonely journey,
This solitary voyage called life!


14 comments:

  1. To keep going through this, every single day,
    Until I find that mystical shore, my destination,
    That I am sure is just an illusion,
    Or unless I die, broken down, into pieces,
    along with my ship, perish, drowning,
    Into these noxious depths,
    Till then I go on,
    Continue my lonely journey,
    This solitary voyage called life!


    Awesome lines !!


    Though i loved the poem .. i still dnt approve of your ever growing pain and sadness filled in words !! Waiting for a lighter write from you ... Hope you wnt disappoint me :)

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  2. Thank u so much Prats! :)

    As far as da sad words are concerned it just depicts my state of mind, wat am going thru! I would luv to churn out a happy one too, bt fr dat u need to feel it, don't you?

    But will keep that in mind! Lets hope by da time I post again, sumthng happy cums outta me! Till den will post on my blog! :)

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  3. As if i won't read your blog !! this is as much your space as your won blog .. write whatever u feel... happy or sad ... jsut that I want to SEE you happy.. more than write one !! you can be happy and write sad poems .. i wnt mind ;)

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  4. hehe! true! jst abt forgot dat! :P

    Thanx fr dat Prats, means a lot! Will try, dats a promise that I can make! :)

    Appreciate ur concern! *hugs*! :)

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  5. Mavvvvvvvvvvv, solitary voyage took me along..totally. felt like i was going through the entire thing myself...


    HuGZZZZZ!! Rest Pratsie said everything else..i'd just second each word she said.. you know we all want to see you happy..

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  6. Thank u so much, Kajal! U knw ur words r rilly important fr me! Glad u likd it...bt dis voyage...dis journey is one which i pray to god dat shld neva b undertaken by nyone...Infact no one shld hav to bear it!
    I feel so honoured coz of ur concern, nd evryone else's!
    *hugs back* :)

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  7. this is much more then just another poem at this page!
    a classic!
    try getting this printed or published somewhere maverick...like in some standard course book... this one surely deserves a place there!

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  8. Oh wow! Thanks Pulkit! am honoured to make u feel dat way! :)

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  9. umm solitary voyage

    beautiful words...... u actually played with words........nice

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  10. THnx Ste!!!!!

    I kno dat the 'solitary' just hung on a bit longer fr u, dint it! :)

    Bt thanx fr ur comments! glad u likd it! :)

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