"I wish I could go back and live my life again"
"Why do you wish so?"
"I am not happy with where I have landed with life...I have made many mistakes...done many wrongs."
"So, you wish to undo the wrongs?"
"I wish to unmake those mistakes"
"Tell me...did you make those mistakes unknowingly?"
"No...I made most of them knowing very well that they were the wrong things to do."
"What if you make new ones, then? Don't you think it would be better to start afresh from wherever you stand now?"
"Probably...but what about the mess that is already my life?"
"Promise yourself to do the right things from now...nurture your life with love and care...the mess will be unmade, the wounds will heal, they always do."
"But the scars will remain. won't they?"
"The scars will be reminders of the dark times...do not wish to remove them, let them be and carry them with yourself...they will be your strength as well."
And then he woke up from his reverie...as the memories of the conversation came back to him he wondered if it was real. Comitting a mistake again, he lit a cigarette and went out in the dark on an aimless walk.....as whirls of smoke filled his surroundings the strains of an old song came back to him from somewhere afar
"Why do you wish so?"
"I am not happy with where I have landed with life...I have made many mistakes...done many wrongs."
"So, you wish to undo the wrongs?"
"I wish to unmake those mistakes"
"Tell me...did you make those mistakes unknowingly?"
"No...I made most of them knowing very well that they were the wrong things to do."
"What if you make new ones, then? Don't you think it would be better to start afresh from wherever you stand now?"
"Probably...but what about the mess that is already my life?"
"Promise yourself to do the right things from now...nurture your life with love and care...the mess will be unmade, the wounds will heal, they always do."
"But the scars will remain. won't they?"
"The scars will be reminders of the dark times...do not wish to remove them, let them be and carry them with yourself...they will be your strength as well."
And then he woke up from his reverie...as the memories of the conversation came back to him he wondered if it was real. Comitting a mistake again, he lit a cigarette and went out in the dark on an aimless walk.....as whirls of smoke filled his surroundings the strains of an old song came back to him from somewhere afar
"Main Zindagi Ka Saath Nibhaata Chala Gaya
Har Fiqr ko Dhuuen Mein Udaata Chala Gaya"
Har Fiqr ko Dhuuen Mein Udaata Chala Gaya"
P.S---Inspired from here...Just a different take on reactions people have to dreams coz not everyone learns from them.
It's one of those conversations that we have at least once in your lives... :)
ReplyDeleteI never remember my dreams .. but this conversation !! yes, we do have it atleast once with ourself !! Dunno if i changed or not !!
ReplyDeleteagar dhooyen mein ud jaati zindagi,
ReplyDeletekisi azeez ki aankho mein chubh jaati zindagi!it was a very thoughtful post! :) good going
wah wah at the end!
ReplyDeleteit was another philosophical post on lounge! the idea put nicely! and the shair at the end just add to it!
i never thought of something like this...nice write up..!!!
ReplyDeletegoing back i never thought of....i am fine now...nd think of a better tomorrow...!!!
with my dreams and my goal i wish to see the tomorow soon than think of the past yesterday..!!!
@Ms. R
ReplyDeleteyep...we all do, it just depends who interprets it how.
@Pretty Me
ReplyDeleteI seem to be having such convyz almost every day:D
@Kajal
ReplyDeleteUn aankhon se aansoo jo phir tapakta
To dil hamara bhi phir ro parta
:)
@Asbah
ReplyDeletethnx dear!!!
actually those lines at the end are a couplet from an old Hindi movie song.
@Yamini
ReplyDeleteas it should be...face the present in the hope of making a bttr tomo...mo point in reliving the past!!!
rote huye dil ki kya sunaayein daastaan,
ReplyDeletenaa koi aah nikalti hai na aansu hi behta hai!it is not very strong but couldn't stop myself from writing after reading your reply to my comment..
@Kajal
ReplyDeleteaansoo kya hai, aankhon mein paani
rota to dil hai, siskiyon ki zubaani
is dil ki siskiyaan shayad wo dil samajh jata,
ReplyDeleteto kisi gam ka fasana paani mein na beh jata
all blame goes to you.. your lines tempt me to come back here and rhyme..:)
ReplyDeleteZindagi lari hai gham ke fasaanon ki
ReplyDeleteKhushi dil e khyaal hai zamane ko behlaane ki
@Kajal
ReplyDeletelikewise...ur replies are inspiring me to come up with these tooti phooti shayaris:D