About a girl

It was always about a girl... It started of with things not going my way... It started of with my dreams, my plans coming to an end... My dreams came crashing down... My hope in life was taken away from me... My inspiration in life was pulled out of me... Life was cruel... When you love someone its hard not to see them... Its hard not to talk to them... The sun of my life was taken away from me.... Going through my ice age now... I know you'll probably be the sun in somebody else's life... But why not mine... I've cried alot.. And the tears have all dried up.. Crying helps... Crying makes the next five minutes feel okay... I know you're happy with another person but why not me....But thats okay coz a part of me feels better that your happy.. And a part of me feels that you have forgotten about of me.. And a part of feels good about it because i know youve moved on....But a part of me is not sure about what the other parts of me are saying or thinking.. A Part of me just wants you to miss me and always remember me....And a part of me thinks that you do but another part of me is not sure about it...(WTF) My mind has talked to my heart.. But my mind and my heart aren't always the best of friends... My heart never listens to my mind.. I need another heart who has gone through the same pain as my heart has.. So that my heart can bleed out to its fellow heart.... After sometime its not even about a girl... Its just about you... You'll realize afer sometime when you look around that everything is just the same... Someone i know said that emotions are such useless.. They dont let you do anything.. But they are the same emotions that let you do everything... My heart is stuck in a time loop... Its playing the same thing over and over again... Kinda reminds me of a star trek TNG episode...:P (i really wana go see the star trek new movie...) .. I wonder why do i have to be one those people for whom it ended up being about a girl thing... Time is a great healer but it can't mend a broken heart.. Only love is the cure for a broken heart... You can be busy all you want but it doesn't help... Listenig to the Noori song BOL again... It kinda makes me feel better.. I think this is my song currently... It lyrics makes me feel at peace.. I know ive posted its lyrics before but im just gona do it again... And round things off...

Saye Thay,
Parchayioon Mein Kiyoon Mein Khoya,
Tarey Thay,
Andheron Mein Kiyoon Mein Roya,

Dil Ray.. Dil Ro.. Anjane rahi Bolay.. Dil De.. Dil Kho,
Roti Meri Akhiyaan Bolein, Bastay Hein Dil Mein Roag,
Deewana Dil Bas Itna Bolay, Sun Yaar Bol Ab Dil Kay,
Bol... Man Re, Sun Lay Yara Bol... Man Bol, Dil Tu Ga Ray..
Ye Aahein Sun Yara Chupti Nahi Is Dil Mein,
Sun Saathi Sun Yara Basti Nahi Is Dil Mein,

Dil Yara Bolay Mera Jag Say Na Darna,
Phoolon Ki Kaliyoon Say Natay Jor,
Dil Yara Mera Phir hi Hai Akela,
Lagay Nahi mera Man Is Oarh,

Dil Ray.. Dil Ro.. Anjane rahi Bolay.. Dil De.. Dil Kho,
Roti Meri Akhiyaan Bolein, Bastay Hein Dil Mein Roag,
Deewana Dil Bas Itna Bolay, Sun Yaar Bol Ab Dil Kay,

Bol... Man Re, Sun Lay Yara Bol... Man Bol, Dil Tu Ga Ray..
Ye Aahein Sun Yara Chupti Nahi Is Dil Mein,
Sun Saathi Sun Yara Basti Nahi Is Dil Mein...