What do you do when you want something within you to die? You know that it is the best if it does. Like a beast that resides within. Killing you within. Eating you. Making you hollow. But then, you have grown to love this beast. It has a special place. You fear the void it will create. You fear the unknown. Most of all, you fear losing it. You let it gnaw on you. Hoping that it will kill you slowly but surely, some day somehow!
P.s Sorry for the negativity but just feel like this right now :(