The Beast Within....

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Its that day,

Today it happens again,

I can already sense,

The excrutiating agony, the pain,

Can't remember the day, or the reason,

Why I am this way, 

Why, when the shadows lengthen,

Signalling the birth of a darkness,

I find myself cringing, trying to hide,

When the full moon, oh! so beautiful for some,

Glows with splendour, I squirm in fright,

As if faced by my nemesis,

All these sensations, so well known to me,

Still bring around a new wave of hurt,

A first it seems, every time,

This day evokes memories of,

The countless ones before,

When a slow shudder spread through my body,

When a rage of epic proportions,

Enveloped my mind, as I clawed at my skin,

Tearing it away, crying with the pain,

Yet continuing to do it,

Stripping away the human self,

To reveal the grotesque monster within,

When animalistic vigour coursed through my veins,

Strength, such I have never known of, surged,

Muscles taut, a monster was revealed,

Disheveled, wild fur, as black as the night,

Fangs bared, feral, thirsty; yearning,

To sink into flesh,

A snout raised towards the heavens,

Echoing an ominous howl,

Heralding the birth of horrors,

Countless humans, I have devoured, killed,

Unknowing, Oblivious, when the monster took over,

Only to shrivel back to my self, human if I can call it,

At dawn, when the sun shone bright,

Shivering, for the torture of my transformation,

Is immense, unbearable; but the pain,

Of having sinned, of taking innocent lives,

Outgrows everything,

The helplessness makes me abhor myself, each time,

I hate myself more than ever,

I caress the silver stake,

Today it ends, No more sins,

I free you from me,

I free myself from my fears,

The sharp pain of the stake piercing my heart,

Draws an unearthly shriek from me,

I feel the beast inside me squirm, breathing its last,

My body wracking with the pain, shuddering,

In the throes of death,

Finally I killed the beast,

The beast that was me! 

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