Have u ever, felt this way,
Wake up to a morning, dark and gray,
Everything around holds no meaning,
The purpose of your existence, itself humiliating!
Ever confused about what to do,
What is my purpose, I have no clue,
Every modicum of faith, leaving my soul,
My mind in a frenzy, as if in a whorl!
Every aspect of life is an illusion,
I have become so numb, there is no reaction,
People walk around me,their life on a roll,
I stand between them, a zombie on a stroll!
Where will I find my calling,
Is it some place far away,
Will I have to separate,
from people who helped me hold sway!
No one seems to understand,
what I am going through,
Its just another excuse for them,
For not pullling through!
If this inner turmoil stays as it is,
I see the end near, the only way to peace,
The only regret that I'll ever have,
is not knowing the reason why I lived!
February 5, 2009
My Regret!
Would have loved to write about myself! But am too complicated to be aptly described in words! Those who know me; know what I am talking about! Those who don't; well you are spared the efforts of unraveling the manifold layers covering me and still not comprehending what I am!
Here I pour out everything that I feel! Welcome to my world...the world of a maverick!
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lovely write .. and the end was just perfect ...
ReplyDeletebeautiful but painful... welcome back Mav .. :) you are indeed back with a BANG!!!
ReplyDeleteomg maverick...my life captured in those beautiful verses
ReplyDeleteHave u ever, felt this way,
Wake up to a morning, dark and gray,
Everything around holds no meaning,
The purpose of your existence, itself humiliating!
I had tears in my eyes after reading this piece...Superheroes dont cry...but i am different..coz i am StepCOCK...Superheroes ka Baap!
Keep writing maverick...loved reading your piece...
Hail Stepcock...With great power comes great responsibilities...n some side effects too...
The only regret that I'll ever have,
ReplyDeleteis not knowing the reason why I lived!
awwww so bitter !
excellent write :)
Thanks Prats! :)
ReplyDelete@ kajal
Yeah its painful coz it has been dat way with me! Btw thanks for the grand welcome! :)! dn appreciate ur concern abt me nt bein arnd on the lounge for sum time!
@ StepCOCK
If dis is ur life den u r welcome to join ma club! m sailing in the same boat! Thanks for the compliments btw! :)
@ Nan
thank u so much! Its bitter bt its true! :)
I agree with Nan... the last 2 lines brilliant... Im at a stage when I also trying to tie the purpose of my life with the career choice..But the problem remains.What is the purpose of my life!??? :)
ReplyDeleteLets see where life takes us..
Thanks Rashi, for da compliments! :)
ReplyDelete:)
ReplyDeleteToo sad a regret, but painfully true. Surmises the reality around as good as true...gr8 work..