A Love Story Written By God Part 1

They say that couples are made in Heaven. And that somewhere in this world, there is someone who has been specially made just for you. But often times, we forget that if couples are chosen by God, then we should depend on God to make that decision. Usually, in fact, almost always, we choose to make that decision and it leads to a lot of hurt and pain for most of us. I did it too and the only thing good that came out of it was a blog full of sad and dark poetry. :) But when I went through one more bad break up early this year, I made a promise to myself. I would trust upon God and let Him work in my life and let Him find the perfect one for me. Before choosing to go ahead in a relationship, I would ask Him if what I was doing was right. And today, as I am writing this, I am glad I chose to do it. Here goes a love story written by God.

One late night in early March, I was on Youtube searching for some good Christian songs. I came across a song called “Mera Yesu”(My Jesus). I clicked on it and started watching. And as I heard the girl sing, I was mesmerized. There was something about her voice that I could not explain. Her every word resonated her love for the Lord and I just knew that very moment, that if I would ever be able to truly love a girl, it would be someone like her. Ever since I became a Christian, I had hoped to be with someone who loved the Lord as much as I did. I didn’t sleep at all that night and spent the whole night watching that video again and again. The lyrics were so real to me. I had tears in my eyes when she sang,

“Mera Yesu mere paapan delai sooli chad gaya je,
Mera Yesu….
Mainu diti onne maafi meri mukti ban gaya je,
Mera Yesu...
Apne pithte kode khae hatthe kil thukwae ne,
sabnoo bahan de vich parea jinne jag thukrae ne,
marde marde maaf wo kar gaya,
teeje din fir uthke khad gaya,
zinda ho gaya je…
Zinda ho gaya mera Yesu
mere dil vich bas gaya je mera Yesu.”

(My Jesus died on the cross for my sins. He was flogged on his back and spikes were nailed through his hands. He embraced all those whom the world had forsaken. He forgave while He was dying and He rose again the third day and is alive again. Alive is my Jesus and He now resides in my heart.)

“mein sa papan de wich dubeya mainu taran aaya si
ik vi banda na mar jave o is karan aaya si
azlaan toh aye rab di marzi
yesu ne o puri karti
jinne palla
jinne palla yesu da phadeya o surganu tur gya je mera yesu"

(I was drowning in sin but He came to lift me up. He came down to earth so that not even one man shall die. Jesus fulfilled the will that God had for us. Whoever touches His cloth shall go to Heaven.)

The next day I called up Amar, a good friend from Church and asked him to listen to the song. When he did, I told him how I felt. I told him, "I wish Jesus has chosen someone just like her for me who loves Him like she does."

And then what Amar said is probably what changed everything. He said, "Why do you want someone like her? If Jesus wishes, He will give her to you."

"Stop kidding. Look where she is and where I am. I cannot even dream of such a thing happening."

"You do believe that anything is possible with Jesus, don't you?"

"Yes I do, but..."

"Then why can't this be possible?"

"Maybe. But if it happens, I'd be the happiest person in the world."

Maybe at that time it was just a crush. Or maybe it was really something more than that. I did not know. By this time I was hooked to her. I knew almost everything I could possibly know about her. I knew how and why her father became a Christian from a Hindu background and how eventually the whole family accepted Jesus. I would spend every moment thinking about her. I would cry at the thought that she didn’t even know I existed. My heart knew it was love but my mind thought otherwise. It’s just a crush, my mind would say. Amar had already started calling her 'bhabhi'. And I would laugh every time I heard him say that. Yes of course I knew that Jesus could do anything but I never believed that something like this would ever happen.

A few days later at Church, Divanshu shared a miracle that happened with him. He said that he was a huge fan of Katrina Kaif. Once he prayed to Jesus that he wanted to meet Katrina Kaif. The next day he was at a mall with his friends and he did meet Katrina Kaif! And he was so amazed that our God hears such silly prayers too and fulfills them. I was really inspired by his testimony and I decided that I would pray too.

That night, Amar stayed over at my place. We were talking on the phone with Sungeeta di and I asked her, “Di, do you think if I pray too, Jesus would help me meet her?”

“Let’s pray and see what happens.”

So that night they prayed, “Jesus, you know how much Aditya wants to meet her. If it is Your will, let it be done. In Your holy name we pray, Amen.”

And while they were praying this out loud, I prayed in my heart, “Jesus, you know how much I love her. If You know that it is love and she is the one that You have chosen for me, then do something.”

Time passed but nothing happened. I searched for her on Orkut but couldn’t find her. I searched on Facebook but couldn’t find her there either. But then one day in August, a friend told me that he found her on Facebook. And surely, this time when I searched, her name came up. I was so happy that day and I thanked Jesus. I sent her a request but she didn’t accept for quite a few days. Then on 8th August she finally accepted. I left a message on her wall which said, “Hi. Praise the Lord! How are you?” But she didn’t reply. I felt she must be thinking that I am just another crazy fan. Then why did she accept the request in the first place? Two days later I left another message on the wall, “helloooo??? I hope I’m not bugging u..” She didn’t reply. I became sad. I told Jesus, “I won’t message her now. You got me this far. Make her message me.”

I was to leave for Canada in a few days. Di and the others threw me a farewell party and I told everyone how Jesus helped me this far and that I was happy that He even considered such a stupid prayer. They gifted me a DVD of one of her albums which had a picture of her whole family and Amar said, "One day you would be in this picture too and you and bhabhi would sing ‘Mera Yesu’ together."

And I laughed and everyone laughed. But deep inside I thought, she doesn’t even reply to any of my messages. How is it even possible then that I would ever be with her? Jesus surely doesn’t want that.

Then a few days before I was supposed to leave, I was online on Facebook and she messaged me on the chat window. We chatted and I told her I was her biggest fan. She said that we should all be fans of Jesus Christ. I thought, “Sigh. She says such beautiful things." And then I had my hopes up again.

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To be continued...