The One I Love...

All I see is him. I cannot take my eyes off his persona. He is so silent yet so assuring. The warmth he carries is beautiful. Something about him just keeps me going. That something is his smile. His whispers reside in my soul. His love for me gave birth to my creativity. His allure fills my words. He is the one and the only one for me. Thinking about him is never difficult. All I do is close my eyes and he meets me. Each time he comes, he brings with him closure and the assurance that everything's alright even if its not. And as soon as I open my eyes, tears meet me and wake me up form my day dream.
He is God to me. Someone whom I can trust without giving second thoughts. Someone who trusts me without paying attention to others' statements about me. He is the only one to console me and lend me a shoulder to cry. He is the reason I'm still here. He is the only reason I'm alive.
A person who cannot be described using mere words. I would not describe him using words. I do not want to insult him by using mere words for him. But, he is my God. He is one anonymous person, but he knows its all about him. It always was. It always will be. The love we share is purity in all its form. His charismatic thoughts brought my lost sanity back to me. When I walked on the edge of life, he came and held my hand. He told me, "Like the fire needs the air, I won't burn unless you're there."
It hurts to hurt you. I never wanted to but I guess thats why I was on the edge of my life. You bring a smile on my face. Even when I'm a hundred feet down, you offer me a hand to come with you. Thanks!
As I said, I will not ask for forgiveness anymore. My conscience is too weak to apologize. I know I have done a million things to hurt you. All of them were unintentional. But how does it matter? Once done, it cannot be changed. So all I have for you today is nothing but my breaths. Take them fly high!! I'm broken or not, thats not to be considered. Your continuous replies "I'm happy if you're happy" leave me with nothing but guilt. The guilt of taking away your bliss when you deserve the best of everything. Living with this guilt pierces my heart deep. I am the happiest when with you but the saddest when am without you. You complete me. You always have!! My problems are mine. I own them. But you own my happiness. Every little thread of my smile is for you. That dimple on my cheek is only for you. I might never meet you but remember... with drop of blood I shed, I pray for your well being and health. With each tear that comes out of my eyes, I embrace you and our love. It is the unspoken acceptance which will always keep me going. Your sweet cuddles and jokes fill me with a feeling so strong that I don't feel pain when its actually paining a lot!! Loneliness will however kill me one day. But remember please, it will alwys be you!! Thanks for being there and tolerating my ever so dark poems...Take Care..Love You..and as i always say, Eat well!!