Her Last Words ...

It wasn't supposed to be a hunky dory! Was it?? Nope...not at all...I always thought that I was about to have a perfect life! You know why! I felt that I was finally going to have a happily ever after...I guess, thats why Shane always said "Be careful what you whisper" but why now? Why now?? Now that everything was going smoothly. He painted a room for me. He was so sweet...so caring..so trustworthy...No?? I don't know. I still don't know! And i would never know anything. Anything at all...Maybe because I was being a fool all this while...maybe because he was just the right kinda guy I always dreamt of, but I wasn't the kinda girl he wanted. Maybe because I needed him more than he needed me! If he wasn't faithful, then why did he spend a spectacular deal for the house?? why did he paint my room for me on my birthday?? why did he tell me that he loved me?? why did he say then that he didn't care if I was an India...If at all this was true, then why did he leave me starved?? It was meant to be "my" life! And another life is about to be born..then why now?? Am I asking too many questions? Yeah! I am! I am sorry...I apologize for giving you the fright of your life, Fred! I never cared if you never were able to speak my name! i didn't know...you knew way too many of them, that you forgot the name of the girl you lived with!! My brother was angry...he was annoyed of me...for I was living with you at the age of merely seventeen...How would he feel now?? After YOU tell him that YOU were cheating on me?? After YOU tell him that YOU only wanted MY money?? I cannot believe you...and I will not believe anyone!! For me...you were my everything. I went against my brother to live with you...the brother who did everything for me after mom died...the one who never let me feel lonesome when dad re-married!! But now, its time to fix everything. And I'll fix each and every piece of this situation...You know, I once had a dream of you, me and our family...What happened to that dream now?? I don't know! Your words still echo in my ears Fred..."Get out of my life and my house, Ashi!!" Your straight face said everything...it told me that you weren't lying...But i still won't believe you...
You are not reading this page, I am sure! This page would probably be washed away after a few minutes! Its my best friend's birthday today! I didn't wish her...because of you Fred...and I know after Shane comes to know of my impending death...she will never forgive me...probably nobody will....I wish I could tell you for the very last time how much you made a difference for me! I wish I could tell you for one last time..that...It was always YOU..and it always will be YOU...I am not over you...I can never be...but I'll free you of me! I apologize for the step I am about to take...

This is what she wrote just a few minutes before her death. The paper was full of blood drops. I wish I could read the whole entry..but it was too gory...
There's only one thing here....People come and go. Some are faithful, others are not. But, life does not and SHOULD NOT come to an end. No one has the right to kill oneself. Your life is the most priced possession. Keep it safely....nurture it with love and cover it with warmth...
Every beginning has an end...But in Life...every end is only the new beginning...